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BY ELIZA MARY HAMILTON.
DUBLIN:
THOU most companionless! what dost thou here
Walking the bright but foreign fields of day?
Faint, as if weary of that golden sphere,
Where little more than wonder greets thy ray,
Doing cold homage to thy daring flight,
Weak, lovely rival of the unenvying sun!
Who only smiles to see his throne by right,—
Where his supremacy will bow to none—
By such a soft and meek-browed Being won,
As thee, thou shrinking stranger in a sky
Whose blaze seems weighing down thy modest eye,
And dulling its pure lustre; never made
To stand forth thus, without a single shade,
In the broad noon of daylight's loud domain,
Where heartless crowds thy nature so profane;
And they, who loved thee in thy deep-hushed home,
Feel thee another in that dazzling dome.
Sisterless spirit! palest of the pale!
Like a white violet, beaten by the rain,—
A single one, that, strange as it is frail,
Has sprung by chance, where every pencilled vein
Of its young heart lies open to the gaze
Of each gay flower-group, in the sun-filled air;
Making it fear, its wet, wan cheek to raise,
And meet the summer multitude's bright stare.
Thou to me look'st heart-sick of all this glare,
And pining for thine own land's raven veil,
Through whose soft folds of stillness more avail
Thy dearer, holier smiles, and glistening hair
Flung down and streaming o'er the bosom bare
Of the clear waters, breathing their deep love;
While star-beams girdle thy pure zone above,
And every nearer cloud that wanders by
Catches a silent sweetness from thine eye.
What art thou like, oh! solitary thing?
Something is in thee touches much my heart—
Bending its reeds of feeling with a wing
Cold as the winds that have sad music's art,
Among those green, wild river-flutes, that taught
The lip of man to imitate their sigh.—
What is in thee of bitterness, oh! what,
Angel of silence in day's gaudy sky!
To bow my spirit thus o'erwhelmingly,
Alas! too strong it grows,—the likeness mute!—
What is this lonely look, but the gilt shame
Twined round the sensitive ethereal lute,
(Along with all thy glorious laurels, Fame!)
When woman's veil is gone!—when song hath laid
(As it will ever lay) the bosom bare,
And she whose lip was of itself afraid,
Trembles to hear her own name fill the air—
A worthless echo! for which fewer care,
Than for the humblest, most ungifted breast,
Whose feelings but like moonlight are expressed
In the sweet silence of her natural home;
Not where the world's whole day-light crowds may come
To gaze on them: oh! what though many eyes
Will pause to bend on hers in gentlest guise,
A moment as they pass; she stands apart—
They cannot pay her for the thoughts that start.
Genius! whose snow-white wings show life's least stain,
Lonely enough on earth thou ever art,
But never half so lonely, or so vain,
As when thy burning breath disturbs the heart
Whose path should be but as a forest stream,
Whispering along, looked through by only heaven,
And the lone primrosed banks that edge its gleam,
Smiling back love for the green freshness given:—
Where never bough that curtains it is riven,
But casts its autumn-sorrows year by year,
Its yellow leaves upon that bosom clear,
Which sighs, and bears them out of thought away.
Oh! thou young queen, that vainly wouldst look gay,
In this, thy foreign realm! sad bride of light!
Dear star of peace! have I e'er wished such height?
Me, may but silence veil unto my grave,
And there, there only, the cold laurel wave!
1829.
SHE went from us, and we scarce thought then
To meet in this changeful world again;
We forgave the gladness that lit her smile
With very tears, to go from our Isle;
We smiled through our own most deep regret—
Gay words alone were spoke—and yet,
'Twas well nigh the parting of those who know
That their voices shall mingle no more below.
We might go to her—but oh! never more
Would she come to our bright but bitter shore;—
"Its valleys," she said, "were the loveliest things
She had seen in her sorrowful wanderings;
They were almost like her own matchless land's,
Her glorious, her peaceful Switzerland's!
Its mountain chains, as they broke on her eye,
Made her think of her own dear quiet sky;
Their grand and their graceful sweep was more
Like those, which seen from her own lake, wore
"Oh! no, our island-cheeks were fair,
Our island tresses of golden hair;
And glorious, most glorious the ocean roar,
For ever around our island-shore;
And its hearts were the kindest, and warmest on earth;
Its hearts! nay, her lip has no words for their worth:
But too often in it had Hope's bubble burst.
She had girlhood's heart when she came to it first;
But fifteen years were enough to tame
Any heart's light laugh—she was not the same;"
The Gentianella.
And she smiled as she showed us the touch of care
Too soon in the braids of her raven hair.
She had long ago given the gay wreaths it wore
To the little groups round—she would wear them no more.
In their mirth she seemed to live over again
The times that lay far back in memory's ken;
And was happy, their small arms flung round her neck,
When their brows with those wreaths she would playfully deck.
How human feelings can throw their shade
O'er the goodliest things our God hath made!
That eve of landing!—She could recall
The rocks, the glittering waves, and all;
The burst of gladness from those who stood
On the deck, as they cut through the foamy flood,
Watching with fixed, proud, kindling eye,
Their own emerald coast, and its golden sky;
While she turned away, to hide the tears
Of one who her place of exile nears.
Yet, in those first years, it was not so hard
To look as if joy were yet unmarred.
"One more and then"—Hope whispered still—
That one went by; alas! one more still,
Oh! she was changed, but had yet to learn
A lesson of change more darkly stern.
Some had shrunk from the dazzling gift, that then
Hung on her lip,—which scarce again
Might care to witch round it the crowd, whose ring
Sought its "Nature"—in this world a lovely thing,
Though flinging its arrowy gayness round,
With a fearless random, to soothe or wound;
Yet when tenderness touched it, or sorrow, her speech
Had a simple poetry, hard to reach,
And her word of kindness was treasured more
Than another's bounty, such spell it bore.
Much still remained of those earlier days,
When the young stranger chained and charmed the gaze;
But much had her mournful heart laid down,
Since some felt a beauty was even in her frown—
For Truth, clear, lofty, and pure, was there—
No meaner thing might seem near it fair.
How the blood of her free-souled mountain race
Would rise in swift scorn to her changeful face!
And her ancient and noble house! (though now
A decaying name) how often her brow
Would catch some spark of its fire, gone out
In her brotherless home! where all about,
E'en 'mid its fallen fortunes, yet
Lingered proud memories, now but regret.
But her's was a spirit not born to stoop:
Some might have seen that proud forehead droop
We loved to stir up her enthusiast soul,
Till like her streams, in their downward roll.
Alas! it was strange—yet now it drew near,
A deadening feeling, a gloom, a fear,
Hung o'er the one desire of life,
Mingling a pain with delight's deep strife,
And a sense of shrinking, acutely wrought
With the bourne that never left her thought.
But, one glimpse of her valley, and this would pass,
Like the shadows that sailed o'er its sunny grass.
Each gave her some parting pledge, to take
Back with her for green Erin's sake;
Sometimes to bring to her thought and gaze
The friends she had loved in her exile days;
Oh! her look as she listened! she did not speak,
But her heart's quick heat rushed o'er her cheek;
And other tears, in a sudden gush,
Poured down fast o'er its crimson flush;
And the faint smile went from her trembling lip,
As she spoke of our long companionship:
Then came again with its bright, swift gleam,
As she said, there had crossed her one sweet hope-beam,
We must, must go to her mountain-land,
She should yet again clasp each dear hand.—
We only smiled with the doubting smile
That silently lets such dreams beguile.
She went—she paused not—she reached her lake,—
The wood,—not a wind through its leaves was awake,—
The lonely pathway—the very door—
But a cloud dropped there—we might follow no more.
We only knew that the hour was dumb,
But for the waves with their gentle hum;
And that the full moon shone down clear,
On lake, wood, pathway, all things dear;
That the mother awoke from her lonely sleep,
In the arms of her child to start and weep:
She came again:—there had not more
Than a few short months gone fleetly o'er,
Since she left us, with thoughts of life's after years,
Till she came again, with few hopes or fears.—
With no wild burst of grief she came,
To many a glance she might seem the same;
Sickness had been on her cheek—but there
No looselier fell her still bright hair;
A somewhat had humbled her queen-like tread,
And slightly bowed down her lofty head;
Her tone was fainter, the fire seemed dead
That once gave her eye such a troubled light
Of passionate longing: a deeper night
"The heart knoweth his own bitterness."—PROV. xiv. 10.
1827.
DEEPLY silent 'midst the loud!
Silent as the blessed dead!
Thou amid the restless crowd
Art a poem to be read.
Thou art like a statue lit
With inward radiance exquisite;
To the spirit's glance acute
Thy lips alone are marble-mute;
Thy very quietude intense
Disturbs the heart, like eloquence;
We vaguely feel, we dimly see,
That solemn secrets dwell with thee.
For wherefore—like that Eastern scene,∗
Veiled in moonlight shadows deep,
Hierapolis.
Where frozen cataracts, all serene,
In soundless foam for ever sleep,—
Wherefore art thou calm and still
As one who ne'er could wildly weep,
When I see the earlier trace
Of swiftest passions on thy face?
Heat, as 'twere a furnace-breath,
Has been marked to cross thy cheek,
Showing 'tis not feeling's death
Will not let thee speak,
But a high, unwavering will—
A purpose imperturbable.
Thy piercing glance of hidden power
Studies others, as if each
Paid some tribute to thy dower
Of thoughts, that scorn terrestrial speech
To outshadow what they are.
Are they brought from worlds afar?—
Or from the grave?—Or from the strange,
Dark book of life—and grief—and change?
Ah! these could never yet compose
Hearts to thy supreme repose.
And what hast thou to do to seek,
Treading in thy courtly ease,
The haughty world will know its own
Imposing signature on thee.
'Twould grieve it much, thy noble form
Ignobly bowed to see,
Among the lowly of the earth,
As if ye had a common birth.
For but to see thee is to rove
In thought through princely halls of light,
And there to watch thee smile, and move
In Envy's troubled sight;
And there to mark thy glance alone
Make a hundred hearts thy own.
Was it ever so?—I seek
Answer on thy stirless cheek.
But when thy dark and tranquil eye
Convicts me in that stealthy gaze,
I am awed—I know not why—
I am speechless in its rays,
As if a sudden blaze of light
Had struck my searching spirit's sight.
Oh! silent in thy matchless grace,
As some majestic forest-flower,
Whose vast and shadowy dwelling place
Has felt the elements of power,
In storm and lightning, bursting through
Its tropic richness pierced by few;
Is there nothing that would make
Thy spirit like Vesuvius wake?
Would I knew the mortal name,
Or immortal, that could stir
Thy lips with tenderness, or shame,
Or indignation; or could spur
Thy heart with Memory's cruel might;
To pour thy feelings forth to light!
I would not spare thee, if the spell
Were mine: I would not let thee dwell
In this scarcely human rest,
Amid the troubled—the unblest.
There is One Name—I heard it spoken;
And then I saw at last
That depth of stillness round thee broken,
As by a clarion's blast.
Rev. xix. 11.
"FALL o'er me, my dark hair! what, what care I now
That thy tresses shine black on neck or on brow?
I will never more wreath them with rose-bud or pearl;
My temples are burning beneath each soft curl."
She loosened the rich braids with tremulous haste,
And flung down their dark length in wreaths to her waist,
Then her pale hand in weariness listlessly fell.—
She gazed!—oh, that mirror a wild tale could tell.
There was shadowed the history of ruin within—
Of the innocent hopes that must henceforth be sin;
She covered her face, but no warm tears came;
She raised it again—it was crimsoned with shame.
"Fall o'er me, thou mantle, whose funeral hue
Of my own young doom is an emblem true;
Fall down o'er me, like the night of the grave
That soon shall be mine;—why seek they to save?
"There they lie, the white blossoms, the same that I wore
The morn of my bridal; they'll do to strew o'er
My breast in the coffin, but never again
Will I twine their snow-buds in these black locks as then.
"Never! never! Oh! how could I deck them with care
That morn?—And, merciful heaven! how wear
The look of the happy?—but all was in vain
To hide from me memory's lingering pain.
"Go!—float on the winds; I have done with thy pride:
Look dim!—look unlovely!—look aught that will hide
From the mockery of homage, the whisperings of praise,
This wreck of what once might be fair to the gaze.
"Yet, flow down once more in thy free loose folds!
While this lamp of the still night is all that beholds;
Once more let me feel thy light shower warm
On this aching bosom—this fading form!
"There is lovingness in thy silk-like touch:
I remember one hand whose mute language was such.
Remember!—that word brings a shuddering start—
I must never remember; 'tis sickness of heart.
"It is more—it is guilt, it is madness to think
Of the days that are gone—'tis a precipice brink:
Yes; cover me! cover me with thy black pall!
Hope, heaven, pure thoughts, I have flung away all!
"I have broken the heart that gave me its faith,
I have had deep revenge, but the price shall be death:
Most deadly—most dreadful revenge! and for what?
Yet, in truth, I did deem I had passed from thy thought.
"We had parted in anger; my soul could not brook
The indignant, yet sorrowful, chill of that look:
I had paid back its sting with a scorn as proud,
And stood cold 'neath thy glance as with spirit unbowed.
"And when I had humbled thy fond heart, had read
Thy suspicion, that peace from my bosom had fled;
When I saw on thy forehead thy mind's bitter pain,
I had turned from its pleading in lofty disdain.
"Yet many a midnight could tell how I wept—
But that is all over!—such tears at last slept:
I kept but in mind that red flush on thy brow—
Oh thou worshipped!—thou wronged! couldst thou look on me now.
"I know how thine eye would pour down on my cheek
Its pure tears; the all that thy lip could not speak:
I know how thy lofty and generous love
Would forgive, and would speak of forgiveness above.
"How thy passionate pity, with heart-soothing tone,
Would remember—would breathe of my misery alone:
Thou noblest, farewell!—Yet, ere young truth grew frail,
Couldst thou know how there reached me that withering tale.
"Thou false!—had my clear mind forgotten its light?
I know not—with all I had suffered it might:
You had shunned me for years, till doubt's wildering gleam
Came ever, and hinted, 'it was but a dream!'
"Why, why did we meet in this world again!
Thy last look of anguish hath haunted my brain:
It hath fed on my life—it hath sullied my soul—
It hath waked sighs whose torture I cannot control.
"I knew not till then how affection may sleep,
May seem over and dead, in its stillness so deep;
Till once more, in its sweetness and sorrow, the eye
That looked love on our youth-time passes us by.
"Yes, curse me!—forget me!—Ah hush! I am mad:
Thou curse me! were e'en my lot chosen with the bad!
No, thy prayers will be mine in their tenderness still,
All crushed as thy heart is, I know that they will.
"Heaven knows I have need of those prayers; for my soul
Has no strength left to turn to thy spirit's high goal:
It is not for me to look up to its light,
I am fallen, and guilty, and false in its sight.
"I have broken my vows to man and to God!
Oh! if ever you loved me, if ever we trod
Together hope's path, teach me now to forget!
Take thy smile from my heart that it haunt me not yet.
"Farewell! and for ever!—thou may'st not now stand
E'en beside my death-pillow, mine clasping thy hand.
Time was, I did hope, that my head on thy breast
Beneath thy dear eye should sink calmly to rest.
"But that was a dream it were sin now to cherish,
Henceforth I must let every dream of thee perish:
And thou!—thou art deeply avenged, for alas!
Tbe
shadows of death will be harder to pass.
"One token I'd leave ere I pass to that place
Where words are unspoken, one kind word as trace
Of kindness long o'er; I did love thee—how well,
Let these locks—my last gift, and my early grave tell!"
I awoke—but the colouring of life was so wrought
With the terrible vision, I never forgot
That young bride of my dream, or her faint lip's low wail,
It rushed back o'er my thought when you asked for a tale.
1827.
IT is not now that I can speak, while still
Thy lakes, thy hills, thyself are in my sight;
I would be quiet—for the thoughts that fill
My spirit's urn are a confused delight;
They must have time to settle to the clear
Untroubled calm of memory, ere they show,
True as the water-depths around thee here,
These images, that then will come and go,
An everlasting joy. Far, far away
As life, extends the shadow of to-day;
And keenlier present from the past will come
Thy sweet laugh's freshness pure, with all the Poet's home.
Rydal Mount, 1830.
ONE, 'mid the lofty hundreds round,
Why pause we, oh! lowlier tree,
On the mossy swell of the silent ground,
Where the shadow circles thee?
Why bend we on thee a longer glance,
And one more softly lit
With a meaning, as when life's young romance
O'er our sobered hearts will flit?
This Poem and a few others in the volume have appeared before in different Periodicals.
Is it, that thou to us art less,
Than thy forest brethren proud,
A stranger in this green wilderness,
This dark and stately crowd?
Or is it, that in thy sudden droop
Down from the sunshine bright
To the blue deep stream—that earthward stoop
Of thy feathery branches light,—
We see some emblem of things that were?
Things that once high promise wore;
But, too weak their weight of gifts to bear,
Sank soon to rise no more!
No—we turn away with a heavy sigh
From the emblems our minds will weave
Like this:—for the passionate years pass by
When we woo our thoughts to grieve.
And memory's power can have nought to do
With thy spell whate'er it be:
Till this sunset's blaze we never knew
The wild, still path to thee.
'Tis that leaf-veiled on thy silvery bark,
As meant not for all eyes,
But by years engraven there deep and dark,
This human record lies.
We pause to think what tale belongs
To those two kind words, and where
Now amongst all earth's colder throngs
Are those who left them there.
We ask, shall they ever come again
To see this trace—and then,
Oh! then, how feel?—shall sudden pain
Darken with tears that ken?
Or, with pitying smile of world-taught scorn,
Shall they themselves recall,
Such as then they were, in life's fervent morn,
When love, deep love was all?
Or, was the vow that here they gave
Only too truly kept?
Is one, are both in the quiet grave—
Have love's last tears been wept?
Yet what were to us the outline sad
Or bright of their after fate:
E'en, trusted Tree! if thy whispers had
A music that could relate?
Nothing!—then wherefore linger on,
Musing, beneath thy shower
Of emerald wreaths, on those now gone
From thy once so well known bower?
Oh! surely there is some strong sweet fount
Of feeling for all our kind,
That can thus with its gentle might surmount
The gulf between mind and mind:
When the long-left stamp of a human hand
Recording a strange heart's thrill,
Can give thee this charm o'er the bright and grand,
Thou stem of "the Weeping," still!∗
"As in water face answereth to face, so the heart of man to man."—PROV. xxvii. 19.
1828.
"He leadeth me beside the still waters."
"BESIDE still waters!" yes, how deeply still!
E'en on this night I feel thee lead my soul,
Oh! gracious Guide! whose voice within my breast,
With power its deeper ocean to control,
Is breathing now such all-unearthly rest,
While the wild sea doth lift me, at its will,
High on its thundering, tempest-maddened roll,
To the dread summit of each moving hill;
Then downward suddenly to valleys dark
Bear me again; and with a heavy sound,
(Like that which, as they sank to death,
Has sternly spoken to the drowned,)
Sweep o'er the quivering, struggling ship,
That still,—without companionship,—
While pants her noble heart for breath,
Right onward holds her way, like fixed intrepid Faith!
"Go! thou young spirit to thy God,
Go as a dew-drop goes,
At sunrise from the unfolding leaves
Of summer's earliest rose!
Fade from our mortal sight, and hence
Go in thy crystal innocence!"
Such was my thought, thou sufferer meek!
When first I heard thy soul
Had spread its fair, unsullied wings
To seek heaven's radiant goal.
"Beautiful Blossom! go," I said,
"Who, who would weep the early dead?
"Thy little heart will breathe away
Calmly its fragrant life;
Not one dark memory of sin
To ruffle, with its strife,
Death's silent current, as it flows,
Bearing thee onward to repose.
"Not one wild pang, of fear, or grief,
Or agonizing love,
To sadden thy celestial flight,
Thou pure and precious dove!
No darkness on thy lonely way,
To that far world of endless day.
"None of the thoughts that trouble us,—
None of the burning tears,
That the proud heart will sternly hide
For long and weary years,
Until that dread, all-humbling hour
Wrings forth to sight their reckless shower;
And mind and soul give way at last,
In wanderings, breathing of the past.
"But thou!—there is no Past for thee,
No memories save of flowers,
And sunshine, and the smiles of love
That lit thy earthly hours:
'Tis past.—Alas! o'er thee, even thee,
All guiltless as thou wert,
Death's deep cold waters darkly rolled,
Nor spared thine infant heart:
But now thy all of death is o'er,
And pain shall never touch thee more.
When flowers were shutting, and the moon
Rose on the cypress trees,
The immortal flower, like those of earth,
Shrank from the chill night-breeze;
Folded its fragile leaves like them,
And drooped in rest its wearied stem;
To wake with all that glorious band,
The martyrs of this solemn land.
'Twas not the excluded splendour soft,
That Eastern moonbeams shed,
Which lit thy lips, and made thy look
Too lovely for the dead.
No! on that night in truth it seemed
That on thy face a lustre streamed,
A light, but not of earthly skies,—
The light of thy Redeemer's eyes!
Oh! beautiful those gentle hands,
That pure as sculpture lay!
The wondrous mystery of their grace
Passed not with life away.
Instinct with soul, each snowy palm
Had language yet, though cold and calm;
And the transparent fingers still
An eloquence the heart to thrill.
Go! without one profaning tear
Dropped on thy placid brow.
The heart grows sad with envy's gloom,
To gaze upon thee now.
Go! go, thou little child, to heaven!
A blessed lot to thee is given.
But no!—it is a glorious doom,
Strong in undaunted faith
To live, and calmly learn that life
Is bitterer than death:
To know what thou canst never know
Of this polluted world below,
Trodden by Him who bore its whole
Dark horror on his spotless soul!
Like warriors, on its mortal field
Wounded and faint to stand,
And yet defy the powers of hell
To pluck us from His hand;
Thou wert not granted thus to strive,
Or the fierce conflict see;
"The heat and burden of the day"
Were all unborne by thee!—
Shame on my coward spirit weak!
I spoke as the faint-hearted speak.
By all the fiery trials past,
By all to come, while life shall last,
By that victorious joy within,
Trampling to death all grief and sin,—
Thy early grave, thy tearless lot,
Thou blessed child! I envy not.
Smyrna.
THEY come! they come! a spirit-dazzling host!
Proud England's offspring!—Earth's least earthly boast,
Science's every prophet-mantled son!
As Alpine streams, in their majestic glee,
Hastening to join some mighty current, run
Down from the solitary thrones of snow,
Where they were nursed, to human haunts below;
They, with their brother-minds, from many a height
In other climes, come flashing on our sight,
As if the winter of the world were done.
Even now, advancing o'er the sunny sea,
Some haply bend upon our island-coast
The looks that nations have desired to see,
Our mental day becomes a splendid night,
More beautiful than noon!—A twilight still,
Awaiting keenly wonder's rapturous thrill,—
A sense of darkness to be lit by them,
Who come, our canopy of thought to gem,—
Deepens; and now a thousand hearts expand,
A thousand minds for sleepless joy prepare,
As,—like the stars assembling one by one
To their high conclave,—each unto his post
Speeds with the rays of glory he has won,
And takes, in Fame's clear firmament, his stand,
While silent triumph fills the summer air.
Hail to your multiplying clusters bright,
Ye orbs sublime! ye fountain-minds of light!
We, with one burning heart, unto our fervid land,
Welcome the kings of earth, a high immortal band.
"The bright and morning star," Rev. xxii. 16.
OH! "a few years,"—how the words come
Like frost across the heart!
We need not weep,—we need not smile,
For "a few years," a little while,
And it will all depart;
And we shall be with those who lie
Where there is neither smile nor sigh.
Yet—"a few years"—is this the whole
Of chillness in the name?
That, glad or wretched, "a few years,"
With their tumultuous hopes and fears,
And 't will be all the same;
Our names, our generation gone,
Our day of life and life's dream done?
Ah! this were nothing:—fewer still
Will do to bury all
That made life pleasant once, and threw
Over its stream the sunny hue
That it shall scarce recall.
There is a gloomier grave than death,
For hearts where love is as life's breath.
Aye, pain sleeps now;—but "a few years,"
And how all, all may change!
How some whose hearts were as our own,
So woven with ours, so like in tone,
By then may have grown strange;
Or keep but that tame, cutting show
Of love, that freezes fervour's flow.
Such things have been:—oh! "a few years,"
They teach us more of earth,
And of what all its sweetest things,
Its kindly ties, its hopes' young springs,
Its dearest smiles are worth,
Than aught its sage ones ever told
Before our own fond breasts grew cold.
But worst and saddest; "a few years,"
And happy is the heart
That can believe itself the same;
Its now calm pulse, so dead, so tame,
To be the one whose lightest start
Was bliss, even though it wrung hot tears,
To the cold rest of later years.
The storms and buds together gone,
The sunshine and the rain,—
Our hopes, our cares, our tears grown few,—
We love not as we used to do,
We never can again:
And thus much for "a few short years"—
Can the words breathe of much that cheers?
Yet something we must love, while life
Is warm within the breast;
Oh! would that earth had not, even yet,
Enough, too much, whereon to set
The tenderness suppressed;
Would this world had indeed no more
On which affection's depth to pour!
For then how easy would it be,
In contriteness of soul,
Weary and sick, to bring to One,
To the Unchangeable alone,
Devotedly the whole!
Then,—"a few years,"—at rest, forgiven,—
Himself would dry all tears in heaven.
1828.
IS there not something awful in thy hush,
Beautiful, thrilling, fame-illumined Vale!
Is not thy calmness solemn! with this flush
Of Autumn, resting on thy silent tale,
Like fervour's glow concentred on some cheek
Of lofty sweetness, when the lips are still,
And the uplifted eyes unmoving speak
Freedom's resolve, and Faith's majestic will:
Thou, too, art offering breathlessly to God
Vows on yon altar of the unconquered sod!
It stands rock-lifted, with its mute appeal
To the pure heavens; nor standeth so in vain,—
Itself the promise and the sacred seal
Of the unchanging God, that he will rain
Light on the darkness; that thou still art loved,
My own afflicted mother! and thy coasts
Yet to arise, a trophy as unmoved,
Out of the deep, unto the Lord of Hosts,
Gone is the sound that shook yon winding glen,
Yon wooded hill, and all the quiet ground:
Where are the banners now? the armed men?
The tramp of horse, in scornful music drowned?
The foe's so firm encampment on yon height,
Now guarded only by the golden spears
Of sunny corn? All, all has past from sight!
Thus, too, shall pass thy tumult and thy tears,
My country! thus on thy sweet face remain
Only glad memories of a shattered chain.
Bright, bloodless river! on thy bosom pure
There broods indeed the shadow of a day,
When no still swans, slow-moving thus secure,
Crowned thee like lilies on thy peaceful way.
But through thy silver depths, for more than life,
Brave men were pressing; from thy grassy brink
Plunged the calm leader in that righteous strife,
In Truth's bright armour all too strong to shrink:
"Conqueror beloved!" e'en yet fast following rolls†
A full stern torrent of unwavering souls.
"The fourth an emerald."—Rev. xxi. 19.
"Conqueror beloved." See Wordsworth's sonnet to William III.
But oh! triumphal pyramid—and pledge
Of sure deliverance!—doth not Nature speak
In these frail dwellers by the water's edge
At thy firm-planted base? these blossoms weak
That cling to thee and look unto the skies;—
The very depths of a celestial peace,
Serious and sweet, in their cerulean eyes,
Pleading like prayer that storms and wrath might cease:
The same small faithful flower of tenderest blue,
That haunts the plain of Waterloo!
Memory, and Love, and Constancy have well
Chosen it their symbol;—shall not Freedom too,—
Since thus in solemn joy 'twill ever dwell
Where despots fled and Slavery's night withdrew?
Yet here 'tis fraught with eloquence to breathe
Prophetic hope unto the meek of earth;—
While humbly thus it weaves its sapphire wreath
For thee, thou monarch-pile of haughtier birth!
Methinks on it thou seem'st from far above
To cast thy smile of most protecting love.
Sir Walter Scott, in "Paul's Letters to his Kinsfolk," mentions having met this flower, commonly called the "Forget-me-not," growing in remarkable luxuriance on the field of Waterloo.
Thus in the shadow of eternal Truth,
Beside the glorious river of our God,∗
Thou shalt dwell safely, and forget thy youth,
Dear Land of sorrow, and the blood-stained sod!
Of "burning lights" amid the darkness shining,†
And martyr-graves that cry to heaven aloud.
Thou from thy heart its fetters disentwining,
Shalt, flower-like, breathe untrampled by the proud;
No cruel hand to crush the unclosing leaves
Of life and light,—and all that undeceives.
Thus the defenceless shall THY shelter feel,
Oh! strong Deliverer—mightier than men!
The Rock of Ages shall its strength reveal,
And no hard bondage wring the soul again.
Spotless and tranquil as those snow-white birds,
On living waters the redeemed shall rest,
As now the crystal current of thy words
Shows them their image ever in thy breast:—
Earth, the enslaved, shall yet, unstained and free,
Bear one inscription—breathe one hymn to Thee!
Psalm xlvi. 4.
"He was a burning and a shining light."—John, v. 35.
AH! yes—we mingle man with man,
But none will be the first
To whisper of the gloom within,
And mirth's enchantment burst.
'Tis long—too long till we can speak
Even half of all we feel,
Or pour on hearts as dark as ours
The tenderness might heal.
We pass each other by in life,
Unguessing of the hidden strife
In any bosom but our own,—
And, communing with it alone,
Separate we try to stem life's waves,
Then lie together in our graves.∗
"Have we not all one Father? hath not one God created us?"—Malachi, ii. 10.
HAST thou looked on Sleep, what time it lay
In its sweet and solemn hush,
On some dear brow, that took by day
The heart's quick smile or flush?
Hast thou watched for the stir of lip or cheek,
To guess where its dreams might be;
'Mid bliss, which thy breath would fear to break,
Or sorrow unshared by thee?
And if so,—while thou hast said "sleep on!"
In the whisper, faint and fond,
Of love that grew with young life gone,
And twined with hopes beyond,—
Has not a thrill passed o'er thee too;
And a voice, though all was dumb?
And, breathed that starry stillness through,
Has not the feeling come,
Sleep were a strangely awful thing,
Unshadowed by Jehovah's wing?
Hast thou leaned upon the pillow dark
Of the sick-bed's mournful sleep,
Over its change and wreck, to mark
What made thee long to weep?
While dread had frozen up thy heart,
And would not let it melt,
And thy own sigh half made thee start,—
Oh! surely thou hast felt,
Thus mute and listening for each breath,
That sleep was fearfully like death?
Like summer moonlight, hast thou seen
Sleep resting on the eye,
Closed in its innocence serene,
Of cherub Infancy?
Laughingly in its blueness yet
Glistening beneath the fringe,
Whose dark length, stirless lay unwet
Upon the bright cheek's tinge;
No single feature there left dull
Then did not Sleep look beautiful?
Its silken strength around him flung,
Like woman's charmed chain;
His lion-might of nerve unstrung,
His eagle spirit vain:
Hast thou seen kingly Manhood's Sleep?
And, gazing on him then,
Hast thou seen Sleep's resisted balm
On sorrow's paleness fall,
And shed there its own depth of calm,
Oblivion sweet of all?
Yet, if thou hast never wearily,
In pain, in sorrow waked,
Longing for sleep, deliciously
To still the brow that ached,
Or on the heavy heart come down,
Like twilight's softest dew,—
Oh! half its blessedness unknown,
Could have been nought to you!
No,—joyous one! they touched not thee,
Those slumbers sent to misery.
But Sleep! who, who hath not
Wandered through thy bright land?
Who ever felt, and hath forgot
The witchery of thy wand?
The visit to our childhood's home,
Its fireside smiles still there,
Just as ere change or death had come,
Or strangers circled there!
1828.
OH! no—there is a path, indeed,
That o'er the solitary sea,
And through the desert's depths, may lead
Him who would turn and backward flee
To scenes and friends forsaken long,
His native hills and vales among.
There is a track o'er mountains; bright
With treacherous, everlasting snows,
Where the dread Avalanche by night
Is all that breaks the stern repose:
Through gloomy forests love can find
Its way to bosoms left behind.
Job, xxxiii. 25,
Down the dark, sea-washed precipice,
Its slippery path it could retrace,
Recross the fields of polar ice,
To look on some beloved face;
Or tread the dim and thundering hall,
O'er-arched by Niagara's fall.
There is a path to age and death;
It leads us through a mournful clime;
We early feel its withering breath,
The cutting breath of time:
A path may be to founts of truth,
But none unto "the days of youth."
Nay, doubt it not! some do return
E'en to those balmy days again;
And drink, at Hope's own golden urn,
Her waters clear as then:
And purer—filled by God on high,
For man to drink, and never die.
The morning of a brighter life
Is yet to dawn for thee;
Thy being's painful dream of strife
Has yet to break and flee;
And a refulgent sunrise show
Pure dew-drops in this world of woe.
Believe thou never yet hast seen
Earth, as illumed by that life's spring;
Thou know'st not what her sweet looks mean,
Of what her breezes sing;
To thee the solemn stars are dumb;
Thy nobler youth is yet to come.
The freshness of the awakening heart;
The fine and ever deepening sense,
Of joy that is not to depart;
The light-diffusing glow intense,
Of love,—the blessed boundless trust
Anchoring no more its hopes in dust.
These have not stirred within thee yet,
Like life within unfolding buds;
Or the glad foliage, freshly wet
By gracious rains in quiet woods:
A richer youth awaits thee still,
A pulse with loftier bliss to thrill.
Only "believe!" and though thy soul
Be dark and dead, it shall arise,
And from the sepulchre shall roll
The stone away, that sealed thine eyes
In the cold slumbers of despair;
And thou shalt breathe immortal air.
And like "a little child," that lays
Its head upon its mother's breast,
Thou, from the glare of this world's rays,
Shalt turn thy wearied eyes to rest,
In peace that is not man's to give,
Nor take away, nor yet forgive.
Do I speak mysteries?—'tis of such,
God's deep, dark Volume speaks;
I would its inner voice might touch
And heal the heart that breaks:
I would that its unfathomed sea
Might bear thee homeward trustingly.
"Dark with excessive light" it lies;
The proud have perished in its deep;
Earth, and the wisdom of the wise,
Beneath its flood shall sleep;
But some shall on its tide of truth,
"Return unto the days of youth."
"The poor in spirit," and the heart,
An exile in this scornful world,
The dreamers deemed,—shall so depart
With faith's bright sails unfurled:
They—they shall joyfully return
Thitherward,—never more to mourn.
SO the river mirrors the Castle walls
Just as it ever did!
And there they are, those old ruined halls,
Half seen, half ivy-hid:
As haughtily facing the autumn blast,
And wearing as royal an air,
And looking as jealous of glory past,
As I knew them in days that were!
The lightning, and time, and the wild night-wind;
All then have passed them by!
And left their green towers still dark out-lined
On the blue and quiet sky:
They have scorned to bow to the storm's strong grasp,
Which hath hurled down things more frail;
Scarce a grey stone stirred from the moss-wreath's clasp,
At its whistling and dirge-like wail.
And, like silver sparkling in the sun,
The bright river rolls on yet;
And gem-like, its graceful sweep upon
The grassy isle is set;
And in emerald freshness the still banks lie:
Oh! I remember all!
How such things live, while young hopes die,
And air-built castles fall!
The names too, engraven here years ago,
On the young tree's sun-gilt bark,—
Now, in the crimson day-fall's glow,
A memory-thrilling mark!
I meet them, as I roam along,
O'er the yellow, rustling leaves:
And thoughts, how many! o'er me throng
Of other autumn eves!
1826.
THE bridal robes were ready; and her heart,
Sick with its dread, yet gave one throb of hope,
As she looked on them, and in thought beheld
Him whom they waited; unto her and life,
From that dark end, that grave's too cruel verge,
With his own smile returned; his own proud smile,
To look on her's, and read the silent love
Intensely shining on him thence, through tears,
That in their fall his ardent lip would meet.—
Even now, as vividly almost as truth,
Oh! yes, they would be yet,—it must be so,—
Happy; and only happier for this
Black cloud blown o'er; there was, for her young mind,
No other dream to which belief could cling,
"What! in the very sight, at last, of love's
Unclouded summer land, could shipwreck be?
Oh! hush!" and suddenly, though pale, she took
The flowers and pearls that were to wreath her hair,
When he should look on it on that fond morn;
And with a trembling hand lifted them there,
And twined them through its silken wealth profuse,
Watched by her silent mirror's image sweet:
And then, as suddenly, tore down each bud,
And hid her face, and clasped her hands in pain;
Taunting herself with utter heartlessness,
That she could thus beguile one moment even,
Of all the iron hours that weighed her down,
Deeper and deeper, in that living grave,—
Suspense's brooding idleness of gloom.
But now 'twas morning; and the morning's sun,
The air's fresh breath, and every thing's sweet laugh,
Seemed whispering her to hope; and then she knew,
(For "Grief so deadly" knoweth when it hopes,)
She felt that joy might be her portion yet.
And yet, at first she only looked like one
Upon whose suddenly uncovered ears
(Heard never till that hour before) should burst
Tremendously around, the deafening roar
Of the great ocean:—on her wakened brain
Those tidings as bewilderingly broke.
Not yet, though reason struggled towards the light,
Could comprehension seize their woe immense.
No statue ever heard more whitely still,
More breathless, and yet breathing forth throughout
A soul whose meaning startled those that saw:
And then she staggered blindly to a seat,
And shuddered long, as ice were in her veins,
And then without a tear was calm again.
But not that day she broke the silence dead.
And when she did, 'twas only to pronounce
Calmly her one desire, her fixed resolve,
To see her misery closer, and to drink
Its horror to the dregs: she would behold
His end, and how he bore himself; her eye
Would see that flash, the extinguishing of his,
To keep its closing glory in her soul.
"No! mother dear, I am not mad; at times
I wish I were: but no! I am not yet.
I know my wish is wild, and may seem mad
To other women, in whom love is not
The thing it was in me; and if I cared
With prudent caution yet for mine own life,
Or still desired to treasure reason's light,
Clear, fresh, and healthful, as the happy do,
I surely would remain at home, and hear
'On such a day the bloody drama was,'—
Not look with my own eyes upon the whole.
But dost thou not believe that unto me
Madness or death were God's most precious gift?
Oh, mother! kind, dear mother! I must go.
You look into my face most tenderly:
Yes, look! I am not well, and yet as well
As I shall ever be; this heart is dead;
Nothing will harm me now: it is, I think,
The last desire that you will hear me breathe;
Oh! then oppose me not!—but pray for me,
That this o'ermastering grief, this awful love,
Whose mighty cataract draws me to its brink,
Be unremembered in the Book of God!
Again 'twas morning, and again the sun
Laughed down from heaven's blue heights on all that lived,
And all who were to die before he sank!
Soon now, and the betrothed should be before
The mournful altar, where, despite of earth,
Their bridal yet should be, and her fixed soul
Follow him, as it would have done through life,
Forth to "the deserts of Eternity."
A somewhat like impatience to be there;
Suspicion, that even yet, fond cruelty
Would start from ambush to debar her heart
The poison which it thirsted for; had brought,
This morn, a fluttering redness to her cheek,
Fearfully beautiful, hope's wildest hue!
And a bright life was in her glance again,
As with a jealous swiftness, mute and stern,
Its piercing ray would pass over each face,
Making their whole contents her own; and then,
Marking that only agony lurked there,
'Twould sink to solemn gentleness again.
And now at last the fettered band might breathe
Once more the air, the pleasant summer air.—
Let the unbending be led forth to light!
Then, with a glassy and unruffled eye,
Within whose moveless balls it seemed that all
1829.
A BIRD, a lonely bird,
That struggled with the blast,
A dove from the bright shores of Greece
Flew to us as we past,
Over the sea, that with a furnace-sound,
That evening swept, our ship around.
To the fluttering sails, and bending mast,
It clung with fainting wings;
I watched it, 'till it made me think
Of many mournful things:
Of genius-winged, of dove-like minds,
Driven deathward by earth's cruel winds.
Of souls that wander forth,
In the morning of their day,
As joyously, and fearing naught
How high, how far they stray,
They caught the weary bird,
Then set it free to fly;
But it would not go—it came to us,
To find a home or die.
Yet it was strange—the land was near,
Its own immortal land;
Whose old and olive-shadowed heights,
In beauty calmly grand,
Soared close above us:—did it come,
A heaven-sent dove,—nor wholly dumb;
With some sealed message unto us,
Which after-days made luminous?
Ah! superstitions, strange, yet dear,
Long, long must haunt my life,
Whenever of that bird I think,
Which through the noisy strife
Of winds and waters came, and brought
The balm a troubled bosom sought:
Nor smile, albeit my words confess,
The human heart's fond foolishness!
A bird may fascinate the eye
That else would brood on inward sights;
Scenes of the past that never die,
But through the long, dark, sleepless nights
Of the unhappy, freshly pass,
Distinct as life in memory's glass.
Where should a dove its shelter find,
But in soft woman's breast?
To her 'twas given, and trembling there
It nestled to its rest.
It did not die; it lived to seek
Warm spots on which the sunshine fell;
It lived in all its beauty meek,
Lived on to know me well:
It bore a charmed life, we said,—
Death claimed it, yet it was not dead.
Days passed, and still we glided on,
O'er brilliant southern seas;
And every morning when I woke,
Its soft eyes were on mine;
Till I dreamed some guardian seraph's looks
Did on my slumbers shine;
And to my sense his care express,
By that pure type of holiness.
And every day it was a thing
More and more fraught to me
With tokens of the love of God,—
That high impervious mystery!
To sit and watch it, made me dream
I was again a child,
Pouring on favourites such as it
Affections fresh and wild;
And child-like happiness again
Brought sunny fancies o'er my brain,
When trustingly upon my hand
It would alight and take its stand.
Days, weeks had fled, and swiftly now
The good ship speeded on,
O'er Biscay's black unfathomed depths,
While still, though faintlier shone,
June's northern sun; and now at last
Each strange and lovely coast was past,
That lay between us and our own
Fair Island!—Oh! the joy (unknown
Save by her wanderers) to behold
Once more that cloudy region cold!
'Twas in that very hour,—
The moment of delight,
When I was summoned to descry
Dimly that first, dear sight,—
Something, that at my feet
Lay unobserved by me,
Was lifted with a look
More than all words could be:
It was the dove,—dead! dead but warm,—
Dead, though it had outlived the storm,—
Dead, but oh! could it, could it be,—
Trampled and crushed to death by me!
Silently, but with looks that breathed
A terror-tinged distress,
We stood;—it is not every heart
What then was felt can guess;
Yes, laugh who will!—faint, motionless,
I gazed in speechless gloom;
As though some dreadful prophecy
Were written in the doom
Of that meek thing:—I thought of those
Who tread to death their life's repose,
And kill the dove of peace within,
Through folly, heedlessness, or sin:
Black clouds across my spirit swept,
Vague mists; I turned away and wept:
In truth, that lonely creature mild
Had made me utterly a child.
But thou! oh! dove-like Spirit good,
Who watchest o'er thine own!
Leave us not ever on the waves
Of life's dread sea, alone;
Suffer us not to banish Thee
From the uncompanioned ark
Of our own soul; to voyage on
In helpless misery dark!
Coleridge's Ancient Mariner.
Never! whate'er may be our lot,
Thou, thou at least wilt leave us not!
No! other thoughts, in hours less weak,
Came to me, and I saw
Mere blessed meanings emblem'd there;
And sweeter, calmer awe
Stole o'er me, with diviner power,
From musings on that nerveless hour.
LIGHT as those delicate fairy threads we see,—
That silver web of most consummate skill,
Which, in the summer air, scarce visible,
Flings arches exquisite from tree to tree,—
Art thou, most wondrous Bridge! thy majesty
Is as some beauteous dream-like miracle!—
Terror, and doubt, and exultation's thrill
Into one breathless joy are blent by thee,
And thy dread sky-borne pathway o'er the blue
And soundless sea, and dwindled ships that glide
Mutely the bright enchanted region through:
While thou dost sit as Empress o'er the tide;
E'en like that Nation high, whose power and pride
Could lift thee as her symbol to our view!
NOW, all my wishes wander, where?
To a land I ne'er shall tread;
Where nothing stirs the death-still air,
For death itself is dead,—
And troubleth not the lovely hours,
And toucheth not the smiles or flowers,
That shine for ever there.
Within that all-absorbing air
Fear's anxious sigh is o'er;
And Change, so busy here, o'er it
Through all eternity can flit
No more!
Years, in that land, the soul can live
In a single moment's space;
Or in one sweet moment's world, for years
Can make its fragrant dwelling-place;
That land! we love, yet leave it;
But its shadowy coast of rest
Follows us on,—as if it longed
To draw us to its breast;
And to its whispers we reply,
With a tender but a hopeless sigh.
I see it, soft and beautiful
As heaven's own pavement blue,
Down in my soul's deep sea; not dull,
Though shadowy not untrue.
Land of the past! I see thy clouds
There lying calm; thy very shrouds
Seem sun-kissed here,
Thine eyes are smiling on me clear;
Why can I not plunge in?
When I see you as I see the grass
Now at my feet—yes! see you pass,
Breathing behind my mind's mute glass—
Hear you within!
What separates us? oh! most dear!
Why is it that I cannot then
Clasp one beloved neck again—
One warm hand feel?
So close! so far! who shall reveal,
Land of the silent Past!
The mystery of thy treasured gleam?
Who say thou art not all a dream
To which men melt at last?
Oh! no; we would not melt to thee,
Beautiful as thou art;—
The instincts of infinity
Press on the pilgrim heart:
How few could brook the dull delay,
To turn and live one single day,
One summer hour again!
And for the happy Past 'twere sadness
If present now as then;
Present!—alas! its laugh of gladness
Were now to some more full of madness!
No! fare thee well! thou pleasant land—
Pleasant at least from where we stand;
Let us gaze back on thy lovely shore,
But we never wish to touch it more.
But oh! thou buried and silent world!
That we see we know not where,
And believe in, because we feel our hearts
Warm in the sunshine there;
Were it much more of mystery,
More hard for the clasp of faith,
Should there be a land we feel, not see,
The path to which is death?
Whence the hidden and lost are even thus
Gazing back through their tears of love on us—
Speaking, though we may answer not,
Nor hear, save in dream-rapt hour,
When their spirit-wings sweep our soul's still chords
With a deeply solemn power;
As we follow them on with pauseless tread
To that passage of night, through the earth's cold bed.
1829.
THOU single, stirless, faded leaf!
Far from thy parent tree;—
What thoughts of glory, blood, and grief,
Come rushing back with thee,
Tide-like, upon the quickening heart,
Remembering what, and whence thou art!
We hear again the gathering-note—
The breathing ocean see,
Sweeping across that plain—while float,
Defyingly and free,
Above proud France's eagles there
Our standards to the summer air!
The whole, like some wild splendid dream,
Half horror and half joy,
And oh! the lonely spot where thou
Solemn and lovely grew,
Flung downward by the weeping bough,
As if its green veil knew
The offering which to that small grave,
He of the lion-spirit gave!
How thousands yet shall pause by it,
When we are with the dead!
And feel its thrilling memories flit
Back, like rich odour shed,
Unperishingly touching round
That spot of proud and sacred ground!
Oh! heart-affecting 'twere to stand
One moment beneath thee,
Thou weeper o'er that deathless land!
Thou distant Willow-tree!
And feel those kindling thoughts that come
On fields like thine, when long left dumb!
Yes, bend there o'er the noble dust,
In its glorious exile given
1828.
HER heart,—that precious jewel rare,
Not to be bought nor sold,—
Was not a flashing diamond proud,
Bright, adamantine, cold!
It was a burning ruby pure,
Whose rich depths seemed to shine
Ignited with a glow intense
Of living fire divine.
And from within,—its rays would cast
Their crimson shadow soft,
On the clearness of her noble cheek,
In silent language oft.
And then a light, like that which floods
Heaven, earth, ere sunset dies,
Seemed shed o'er all her face and form,
From her deep, glorious eyes.
Round her fine lips the flame would play,
And on her brow upraised:—
Scarce seemed she then mortality
To those who mutely gazed.
She lingered not to feel her mind's
Enthusiast lamp grow dim:
God had illumed its passionate blaze;
Unquenched it passed to him.
At once the etherial fire burst through,
With swift, consuming force:
At once with lightning-speed it sought
Its high and heavenly source.
I looked upon her:—closed and cold
The dark-fringed eyelids lay!
The spirit that had fathomed mine
Had passed from earth away.
I did not weep—to me death seemed
In those young, lonely years,
Too sweet a thing—too rich a boon—
To sully it with tears.
When hearts like hers are stilled at last,
To throb, to breathe no more,
Oh! never say that it is life
But suffering that is o'er.
YET what have we to do with dreams
Of bright vales in thy land?
Of hills, that like our hills of earth
Magnificently stand,
Flinging their mighty shadows down,
For ever, with a kingly frown?
Moon! what is it to us,—of thee
Whom never voice may reach,
From our low world, on which thy look
Falls like soft music's speech,—
What is it that we catch some trace,
Likening thee to our dwelling-place?
Our lovely, mournful dwelling-place,
Where death and life entwine!
Beauty and darkness; mirth and tears;
Pain, sweetness, and decline!
Our outcast island, from yon sea
Of measureless immensity!
Why linger we, thus searching yet,
Thy smile serenely fair?
With this so fond intentness too,
As hope or fear hung there;
Chaining us to this closer gaze
Upon thy clear, still, solemn blaze!
Why vainly ask we thy mute beams,
If in thy clime there be
Such things as sorrow, change, deep love,
Perishing brilliancy?
If hearts go down unto the grave,
And eyes forget young vows they gave?
Or if the worship of the Lord
Be the sole high employ
Of all thy bright unfallen world,
Through one long day of joy;
And all the tears there wept be those
For our idolatries and woes?
What can this be to us? oh! man,
A little lower than the angels made!
Even thou, in all thy wildness, dare not dream
Of any upward path, while undecayed—
Of any passage to those worlds that shine
Down in their solemn splendour upon thine.
What then to us? oh! what, indeed,
If, when our heavy eye
Closes in coldness, it lies shut
To all eternity?
If so, shine on! but never will I raise,
Again to star or sky, my kindling soul or gaze:
But by this stir within, like kindred's touch
Of tenderness, awakening in its strength,
After each blotted out and broken tie
Had lain forgot, through many a cold year's length,
Till darts mysterious knowledge of some face
Over the heart where it had left no trace:
By something like to this,—some sudden gleams,
Illumining, like prophecy, the soul,
In the dead stillness of the glorious night,
When come deep longings for some loftier goal,—
We feel, we know our kindred with that heaven,
Our home to be, whose sin shall be forgiven.
And therefore comes this rush of vague, strong hope,
This struggle of the weary heart to paint
All that may be, mid those, thy sunnier spots,
Of endless love, and bliss without a taint:
Death lies between us, thou majestic moon!
But death, and its deep secrets, come full soon.
Observatory, 1827.
YOU blame me, sister! when I say
That Autumn makes me sad;
But quicklier still you silence me
For thinking Spring is glad:
Does it not prove, howe'er we blame,
We all are very much the same?
There is, in every breast that lives,
A sadness of its own,
That reason neither cures nor gives,
Whose fountain is unknown:
A something that we seldom tell,
But that we cannot conquer well.
Why is the joyous Spring to thee
A melancholy thing?
And why does Autumn unto me
Such gloomy feelings bring?
Neither can answer, but we know
We do not merely fancy so.
It may have been some single hour
That coloured them to both;
Some vivid moment's lightning power,
That growing with our growth,
Made that to one for ever sad,
Which to the other seems all glad.
Perhaps the heart was beating fast
With bliss too deep to say,
When on a hawthorn bough we cast
Our happy eyes away:
Perhaps, when tears were ill restrained,
That look on a dead leaf was chained.
We marked not then the hawthorn bough,
Nor then the withered leaf:
But they are felt intensely now,
In silent joy or grief.
Let us compassionately see,
Man's spirit is a mystery!
1830.
BEAUTIFUL painter! once so dear
To her whom thou hast imaged here,
Go take thy pencil now again
And paint thy friend—but not as then.
Paint her with a brow on which
A thought of anguish lingers;
Cast o'er her eye-lids bitterly,
Her trembling tear-wet fingers,
And breathe through all her altered mood
The consciousness of solitude,
With little, little thought or care,
If high or heart-subdued her air;
But, for those eyes that dwelt on thee,
In poet-dreams so lovingly,—
I say not now express their look,
Hide the glance thou need'st not brook.
And the dark folds of heavy hair,
(Which thy soft hand with graceful care,
And place this portrait by the side
Of one that looks with tranquil pride,
And the deep silence of disdain,
Full on thy troubled conscience now;—
Whose smile ne'er hinted aught of pain,
But whose erect and courteous brow
Haunts with upleasant
awe thy life,
Awakening shame, and doubt, and strife;
Both are the same, those hidden eyes,
And those that beam with smiling lies.
Forget all that! 'tis past—'tis o'er,
Such looks shall trouble thee no more.
For the last time that face pourtray!
And let a purer light than day
1832.
YES! 'tis a majestic thing,
Soaring on its heavenward wing
Through illimitable space:
Yet methinks its godlike grace,
Passing o'er the unfolding heart,
Makes its rest too often start;
Disturbs it with too rude a might,
O'erpowers it with too cold a light,
For mortality to bear
And leave us what we early were.
We catch the faded, languid tone,
Of life too passionately known,
And walk too soon beneath the sun
With surprise for ever done.
Too curiously we ventured near
The fountains of delight and fear;
Too eagerly we sought to taste
Existence; 'twas a fatal haste!
Oh! if there were something new,
To give our life its early hue;
Any fresh emotion's lore,
Any thing unfelt before:
If the heart had yet a page
In its altered volume sage
Unopened, unperused, to show
Depths there that we did not know!
But the highest, lowest note
We have touched: we know by rote
All sensations it contains,
Its subtle sympathies, and pains,
And sweetnesses; and powers that wait
The rich developing of fate,—
And infirmities that creep
O'er it like resistless sleep.
We know the thoughts of others now
By merely glancing at their brow;
And worse, we know ourselves, and see
We are not all sublimity.
Alas! the poetry of thought
Too much of science soon has caught;
Leaf by leaf, we tear away,
1829.
VALES, of my country, calm and bloodless yet!
How oft beneath far skies intensely blue,
Where no dear western tree my childhood knew,
By a sweet shower of summer freshly wet,
Glistening and trembling, my lone footsteps met
As these do now—how many a time to you,—
When death-black cypresses the darkness threw
Of their dense forests round me, while I let
Insensibly upon my spirit creep
The solemn shadow of those thousand graves
Midst which I breathed,∗
—from the wide silence deep
Of that soul-saddening land, across the waves
Of the wild sea, I fled as if in sleep,
And trod the verdure bright, which this fair woodwalk paves.
The graves of the Turkish burial-grounds in Asia Minor.
Beautiful land! though clouds are in thy skies,
Floating like silent tears in eyes we love;—
Though thou dost need God's rainbow from above
To shine upon thee oft—for sorrow lies
Heavy upon thee, and the very sighs
Of breezes soft that through thy branches move,
Seem with portentous tones of fear enwove
To gentle hearts. There are who can despise,
Yea hate thee, Isle of beauty and of woe!
But few that ever gazed on thee could keep
Hatred or scorn;—thy smile's resistless glow,
Thy fresh o'erflowing love, have won to weep,
Not seldom, some surprised, heart-conquered foe,
Who could not, from thy shores, all stern and tearless go.
nstinctively
my feet a moment shrank
From the dim windings of that grassy way,
Where, to an emerald tint, the glow of day
Was silently subdued, and heath-flowers drank
The lingering dew-drops on each leaf-veiled bank;
Then I remembered I had been away
(In other lands, in many a crystal bay
Of Grecian shores whose haunted beauty sank
There are "seven churches" in the burning East,
Scattered in ruins 'mid the ancient hills
And cypress-darkened vales: their silence fills
The very air with awe! the sounds have ceased
Of old immortal times—nor man nor beast,
Nor the glad murmurs low of running rills
Pass the grey desolate olives—sadness stills
The inmost pulses of the thoughtful breast,
Where martyrs sleep, where the wild myrtle breathes
Amid a realm of death; and man's least touch
Leaves subtle poison on the vine's green wreaths,
The sun-steeped orange-flowers.∗
My God! how much
The plague is communicated (it is believed) by a flower or leaf touched even by one who may not have the disease himself, but has been, though perhaps unconsciously, in contact with it.
Of thy rich love dost thou even yet out-pour
Where once these churches rose, on a saint-trodden shore!
Oh! must thy children leave thee, thou beloved!
Shall all be vain! must the resplendent light,
Shed from thy "Golden Candlestick,"∗
in night
Dismal and dark, be quenched,—or far removed
To happier lands? Or in the furnace proved
Shalt thou come forth more holy and more bright,
And rest thee humbly from the weary fight—
Thy valiant Truth by heavenly hosts approved?
Alas the dread impenetrable veil
That shrouds thy Future! yet, if thou indeed
Must only leave the spirit-thrilling tale
Of all thy griefs for after times to heed,
Fear not! the mounful
record will prevail,
And sanctify to earth thy every leafy dale!
Rev. i. 20.
SLEEP now! sleep on, oh earth! for never more,
What throbs so e'er convulse thee, shall a sound
Pass like that cry thy trembling bosom o'er;
Never again! Through the abyss profound
Shaking the stars upon its awful way,
Even as a blast might shake the forest leaves,
Its piercing love went up:—but terror lay
On thee, blood-sprinkled! thee whose dust believes
What man despiseth—"silence was in Heaven"—
Archangels veiled their faces in their wings:
Then burst that song from multitudes forgiven,
Which now for ever and for ever rings,
Here through His people's hearts—there on celestial strings.
Then "it was finished:"—all for which thine orb
Yet keeps its place amid the worlds of God,—
All for which darkness faileth to absorb
Thy wretched breast, where once He breathed and trod,
Thy wise, thy wicked trouble thee; and yet
What is their hum of impotence to thee?
That cry alone thy Mountains ne'er forget,
That cry alone shall ever awe thy Sea:
And weak (as midst the thunders of its waves)
Are human words to us whose souls have heard,
Hear yet that cry. Do thou with all thy graves,
Sleep on in sunshine, by their breath unstirred;
Till once again, a shout, a Trumpet-blast,
The last, the loudest, thou shalt wake to hear!
Shall rend the heavens, and downward through the vast
And echoing Infinite descending clear,
Shall bid thy wise be dumb, thy ransomed cease to fear!
1832.
THOU wild and playful! as the breeze,
Whose wing is ruffling now
The evening slumber of the trees,
The drooped laburnum bough;
And thine own dark loose locks, that o'er
Thy downcast face, will half
At moments hide, 'till shaken back,
Thy sweet and blushing laugh.
Thou suiting flower for Spring's caress!
Thus won to silence now,
And sitting 'neath her leafiness,
With lifted listening brow;
The blackbird pouring over us,
Such loud yet soft delight,
Is like thee—neither has a grief—
A thought of storm or night.
How lightly drops upon my neck,
That soft encircling arm!
A purer wreath than pearls to deck,
A thing the heart to warm.
My fawn-like favourite! soul hath touched
Like light thy form and face,
And to thy slightest motion given
A gay yet stately grace.
Oh! very beautiful thou'lt be,
When to the sun of time
The bud of hope uncloses free,
And thou adorn'st thy clime;
While thy sweet mind's rich fragrance fills
The atmosphere around,
Making the circle where thou art
Seem like enchanted ground.
But they'll wreathe that Grecian head of thine
With gaudy garlands bright,
They'll let no shadowing veil decline
Over that fine eye's light;
They'll teach thee 'tis not well to let
That simple crimson blush,
So often to thy careless cheek,
At each emotion rush.
Yes—thou art for the world—and I
Know what the world ordains;
The crystal soul's transparency,
Its misting breath profanes.
I shall not feel to thee as now—
I shall not love thee so;
For this first singleness of heart
I shall but faintly know.
Yet in the triumph of thy gifts,
When dazzling with delight,
If thou should'st start, as truth uplifts
Life's curtain, falsely bright,
Remember this one silent hour!
Wert thou not happy here?
Gifts are but grief, too well thou'lt learn,
Steal back and veil them, dear!
1830.
"SONG is within thee—melody
Struggling for utterance clear,
Longing to pour its loving tones
On human heart and ear.
"And genius, with its haunting dream
Of deathless things and grand,
To burst from solitude, and roll
A river through the land.
"But wouldst thou sing so that the whole
Hushed world shall pause to listen,
And hearts by thousands throb response,
And young eyes near thee glisten?
"Go dip thy lute in hope's clear stream,
That joy illumes each morrow?
No, but in life's deep dreary sea
Of ever murmuring sorrow!
"Then shall a power be in its strings,
Swift, strong, as grief, as death,—
All men have wept, all seen the clay
That shut in human breath:
"All lost a something unforgot,
For sake of which they keep
Ever about their hearts the tears
They cannot always weep.
"So Sorrow tinges sunniest things,
Sorrow is on the leaves,
The Spring's young air is full of her,
The Autumn's golden eves.
"All happier echoes now are lost—
Have died from earth away,
None wake but for the bards, who down
Through grief's dark valleys stray."
The minstrel sighed:—"Then thou, my harp!
In the gloomy world's old age,
Seek not, desire not, hope not now
Fame's glorious heritage!
"I cannot, dare not sing to grief
As I could once have sung,
Sorrow hath madly swept thy chords
Till all the stillness rung.
"But now with meek forgivingness,
I gaze back on that night,
As on a mournful mother's breast
Who nursed me for the light;
"As the young and happy flower might think
Of that dark, buried time,
When earth was breathing through the seed,
Life for a sunnier clime.
"I dwell in thought's most peaceful land,
In feeling's stillest spot,—
Enough, if from some hearts beloved
No time my songs shall blot!"
SISTER! have not we too come
To a brook like Eshcol's own,
Rich with many a lovely cluster
Of a Vine that stands alone?
Truth is reached; its crystal waters
Whisper at our weary feet;
And fruit-like words, low-bending o'er us,
To our souls are sweet.
And oh! the graceful Tree of Life,
Whence they thus so meekly stoop!
So kindly in a world of strife
Where gentle spirits droop!
One simple, graceful branch to-day,
One bright, redundant cluster only,
Enough for thought we bear away
Back through deserts lonely,
Back through this world's fruitage poor,
And its mean degenerate vines;
Can we, can we turn to them,
While this in memory shines?
By its living sweetness deep,
We will on and win that land;
Not a doubt shall o'er us creep
For the weakness of our band;
Not earth's mighty hosts of war,
Shall affright us, as we press
Onward to our pleasant home,
Through the dismal wilderness.
We will sit beneath that Vine
Which o'er us spreads from far above,
Drooping with a grace divine
Its lowly boughs of love;
Is it not already ours,
Our beautiful celestial Tree,
Whose glory overshadoweth heaven,
Whose root is in eternity!
1832.
HERE, in this wounding world,
Whom, whom have we but Thee!
Is much of sweetness the reward
Of all our blind idolatry?
We drink at love's bright fount;
We drink, but do we thirst no more?
We bear a cross—but not the one
Thou—Ever-blessed bore!
And do we easier find the yoke—
And is the burthen light?
Lighter than thine? that thus we cast
Thy pitying tears from sight!
Does never weariness of heart
Come over us like death?
Need we no rest unto our souls,
No anchorage of faith?
Oh! Lord, thou knowest! full well canst thou
Discern upon a smiling brow
The bitter lie that would conceal
Pangs it is not in man to heal.
1826.
THY affection resembles a crystal stream,
I have somewhere gazed on long;
More purely clear does its stillness seem,
Than steadfast, or true, or strong.
For let but a summer wind blow o'er
Its constancy to one,
And the image that lay so deep before
Is shaken on its throne.
And whoever in passing may smile on thee,
Shall meet an answering smile,
And a calm transparent sympathy,
Sweet for a little while.
But it does not last; e'en current-like,
Thy feelings steal away:
Whate'er may their sunny surface strike,
Stirs them; but naught will stay.
As harp-strings fervently reply
Alike to many a hand,
But after, all as quickly lie
The same untroubled band.
'Tis well for thee! well for a mind
That grief would wildly move;
But what for those who have consigned
To thee their life through love?
Like rose-leaves on a river strewn,
They may watch their fondness, sent
Carelessly out of sight full soon,
By memories that repent.
And as the torn-up flower of joy
Floats further still from view,
May weep; but thou who could'st destroy,
Wilt merely smile "adieu!"
And yet to think that one who thus
Shall wound and injure hearts,
Is good and kind, as few of us
Whose love not so departs!
To think of all thy gentleness,
Like that Italian air
Whose sweet warm breath has deadliness
That life yet longs to dare!
Alas for earth! the weak then too
Are tyrants like the strong;
Even dreams that deified a few,
We live to learn were wrong.
Yes! it is vain; though hope will rove
Through realms too oft re-trod,
There is no heaven but one above,—
There is no god but God.
1830.
AND this was death!—he closed his eyes,
And gently fell asleep;
As a cloud that has travelled through summer skies
Sinks in the Western deep,
When its waves have given up the last warm streak,
Where Evening pillowed her fading cheek;
And the myriad stars are assembling all,
In the firmament's solemn breathless hall.
To the last his look beamed kind on all,
When he raised its feeling light;
And some stood there, who could yet recall
How it gladdened their earliest sight;
For he ever loved the fetterless glee
Of childhood to ring around his knee;
His gentle hand, his smile it knew,
And to lisp its loving welcome flew.
But this is past, all past!—his place,
Empty and silent now,
Will bring a sadness o'er the face,
A shadow o'er the brow;—
But wherefore weep, when we think of breath
Thus peacefully passing forth to death,
Like the green from the leaves of the aged tree,
When it drops at last unmurmuringly?
Death! death! whose footsteps are so still,
That few can catch their sound,
Till thy hand has grasped the heart's warm thrill,
Weighing it to the ground:
On us, on those we love, on all
Let but thy night of silence fall
As softly! and our souls no more
Need shrink to plunge from life's steep shore,
Into the never fathomed sea
Of mercy and eternity!
1828.
AND all this wild light-heartedness of youth
Laughingly sparkling around lip and eye,
This mirth unmixed, that looks in very truth
Sunny and pure as if it could not die!
Stirring the grave cheek with a smile to see
Boyhood again, what boyhood still will be.
This recklessness of sorrow! oh! to think
That yet (how surely!) sorrow is for these,
That some at least shall of her waters drink,
And sickening turn from all earth's witcheries:
That a few years at best, and youth is gone,
And mists will gather over life's glad dawn!
To think of nature quenched, warmth chilled, how soon!
Of all the paths to ruin and to wrong,—
All that like soft gleams from a treacherous moon,
Will woo to evil, their whole path along.
Ambition will find many a martyr here;
And Love some fervent hearts to blight and leave;
Pleasure too victims, round whom, year by year,
Her poisoned web yet closer she will weave.
Nay, do not say that this so deep gloom-stain
Hath but its being in my own dark brain!
Look on that proud brow, monarch-like, erect,
Its coal-black curls blown off its palest height,
That spirit could it brook shame, scorn, neglect?
Would it not through the weary waking night,
When passion's tide uncurbed grew madly strong,
Fervently for the grave's cold shelter long?
And shall it then have learned to long in vain?
The thought is dreadful! when no single drop
Of earthly hope can soothe the fevered brain,—
Should it in agony dash from it hope,
And rush down, down, where hope can never come,
Into the suicide's last fearful home!
That other changeful face, like April sky,
All sweetness or all storminess by turns,
Expression inexpressible flits by
The eye, most strangely beautiful, that burns
With flashes of deep feeling or wild mirth:
Oh! Genius, I would know thee, yes! through the whole earth.
Yet Fame, that now seems near thee as thy own,
Like rising sun; should it in after days
Mock thee and sink—in bitterness, alone,
Haughtily hidden from the cold world's gaze,
How tears will gush from those dark, smiling eyes,
As one by one each glorious hope-dream dies!
That lip of gentle goodness, the cheek's glow,
Those slightly sun-browned locks of silky gold,
They might almost seem woman's, and yet no!
The forehead, smooth albeit and fair, is bold;
Man's lordliness of soul shines mildly there,—
Young purity, untainted yet, beware!
Forth, modestly secure, I see thee come;
What is thy spur to win applause's prize?
Holy affection, thoughts of happy home—
Of triumph in its bright and tender eyes:
Alas! a harsher world awaiteth thee,
Severer judgment, colder sympathy!
Yonder dark cheek like India's, fierce and stern,
The impetuous flush, the indignant lightning frown,
All careless the crowd's love or hate to earn,
Yet at the voice of fondness softening down;
Oh! unrequited Love, alight not here!
Few his heart's idols, but intensely dear.
And thou, the graceful, warrior-like, and tall!
With merry glance, frank, open as the day,
The ruling star and favourite of all;
Thou of the witching tones, and free step gay,
Like tread of hunter on his native hills—
Well knowing of thy spell, to win to thine all wills!
The gift of stirring eloquence is thine;
And thine the dangerously doubtful art
To guide men's minds, or creep into, and twine
Round every pulse of woman's trusting heart.
Should slow disease its fetters o'er thee fling,
How will it bow thee down, and tame thy fearless wing!
Yes, ardour's kindling fieriness is here,
And young enthusiasm's headlong heat,
Aspirings high, supreme contempt of fear,
The generous burst, the passionate heart-beat,
Quick jealousy of honour's lightest stain,
Souls that will never stoop, but spurn all foreign rein.
And Mind, its might yet slumbering unknown,
Like ocean's calmness; all the dawning light
Of dazzling Intellect, whose glorious throne,
High as the everlasting stars of night,
Has homage from all nations, through all time,
Whate'er the sons of men behold its blaze sublime:
This may lie here, enfolded in the bud;
The mountain river has a silent rise,
Ere yet it pour along its giant flood,
And send its voice of thunder to the skies:
Yet sorrow is for thee, even thee, proud son
Of immortality already won!
But fare ye well! I will hope better things;
I would not damp young happiness—oh! no:
I would but warn you of the many stings
Which sin hath made man's heritage of woe,
That in your hearts there might be shed abroad
When all things fail, the perfect peace of God.
1826.
AS he spake I seemed to hear
That deep and dismal current strong,
Swollen, and sweeping at my feet
Rapidly along.
I heard the sound within my soul,
As through those awful arches vast
The unreturning waters rushed
In deepening blackness past.
I stood in spirit helplessly,
On Death's appalling brink,
When lo! the crumbling banks of life
Beneath me seemed to sink;
And leaf-like I was swept away,
From light, from earth, from beings dear,
My brain was dizzy with the speed,
My failing eye-lids grew unclear,
Like those which strive with coming sleep,
And shut beneath its dreamy Deep.
And yet the tendrils delicate,
All torn and disentwined,
Of earthly feelings, quivering clung
Around my struggling mind.
But still away, away I passed,
On to that barrier dread;
And still around my heart there swelled
Those freezing waves like lead;
And still upon mine ear a sound
Eternal—infinite—profound!
And yet even then! (oh! thou my soul
Repose thy quiet eye
Ever with faith and courage strong
Upon that inward prophecy!)
I felt "the everlasting arms"
There still beneath me as in life;
Floods could not quench His precious love,
Nor touch His peace, which like a dove
Brooded above the strife.
1833.
WELL might they dream death was not nigh;
There was such brilliance in her eye,
On her young cheek so sweet a blush,
Warm as it were the summer's flush,
Oh! who could deem it was a bloom
Betrothed already to the tomb!
Yet—all, all promises that seem
Beautiful as a first hope-dream,
What are they? ask of earth and sky—
They are the very first to die;
At sunset's splendor who would say
It rose o'er the death-hour of day?
When Autumn, empress-like, moves on
'Mid vintage-music to her throne,
With hues of every Eastern gem
Circling her gorgeous diadem;
Who, as her scented turf he treads,
Would deem, the golden light she sheds,
Is but a torch, blazing thus clear,
To light the funeral of the year?
And she, that maiden of the land
Where hearts are warmest—Erin's land;
She whose brow, whose step, whose smile
Spoke all the spirit of her Isle;
Whose glance had poetry's sweet power,—
Faded, like sunset's, Autumn's hour.
They looked on her and thought—"Oh! no
She was too beautiful to go."
It could not be, the veil of night
Was falling on a thing so bright;
Falling on their world of bliss.
They felt her fond and gentle kiss,
Given as she bent her graceful form;
It could not be those lips so warm
Were to be cold and still—so soon,
Even ere one change of the young moon.
They trusted—how the heart will trust!
How what it loved must turn to dust;
How oft it must be coldly flung
From hopes to which like life it clung,
How wounded, almost withered be,
Ere it will learn earth's falsity!
One stood by her, their words were few,
She could not, would not, say
"adieu,"
But cut one curl of chestnut hair,
And gave it him to keep and wear.
1825.
BREATH of my soul! life of my life!
Spirit! whate'er thou art,
Whose deep sweet mystery soothes, like love,
The storms that sweep the heart;
Like Spring—like sunshine o'er my mind,
I feel thee coming back,
And flowers, and warmth, and greenness fresh,
Are springing in thy track.
What art thou—music of my mind?
I listen and am calm.
Fame were as nothing to the power
Of thy celestial balm.
I have thought thee one of God's own choir,
Permitted thus at hours
To wander upon mercy's wings,
From thy far world to ours:
For oh! possessing not possessed,
Thou art not mine—but I
Am thine;—and with thee near, I feel
To lose thee were to die.
To lose thee! oh! to lose thee!—thou
Whose hour like that of tears,
Bears off the heart's long gathered snow,
The avalanche of years;
The death-like weight, that silently,
We know not well from whence,
Has come, and hangs upon the soul,
And will not, will not thence.
To lose thee! 'twere a living grave,
The sunset of all bliss,
Leaving, like lost affection's last
Altered and freezing kiss,
The world another place—the light
Of heaven a joyless thing;
Enthusiasm's flame gone out,
Love, flown with wounded wing.
But who could bear to die, what time
Thy inspiration's flood
Is rolling passionately strong,
On through the kindling blood?
While, over anguish even, thy lip
A moment's beauty breathes,
As the bee gathers honey drops
From deadliest poison wreaths.
A little longer, Misery's self,
Entranced and calmed, would wait;
While yet thy touch is on the chords,
It feels not wholly desolate.
A little longer it would stay,
Till their last tremblings close,
Then—then let death in kindness spread
The pillow of repose!
And scarcely less thy soft, low sigh
Stilleth the waves of joy,
Back rushing in their sudden tide,
As if they would destroy.
In all thy moods, oh! Voice divine,
Thou art a blessed thing;
If thou art madness—might our life
Only such madness bring!
When clouds are on my heart—do thou,
Bright spirit from my God,
Sing it to rest, and bear my soul
From self and gloom abroad!
Loosen thought's chain, till sympathy
Soareth unfettered forth,
To muse on others—upon all
The unhappy of the earth!
1829.
IT was a silent bank, where a few wild flowers grew,
Stirring to every sudden air that on their slight leaves blew,
And there was sweetness deep, that moved like music o'er my heart,
In the sound of those low breezes, that sang unruled by art:
And in the clear and quiet sky, a few soft clouds like snow,
Were floating on, to perish soon, while on the moss below,
Near me, were strewn the glittering drops of cool and frequent spray,
Flung by a bright and laughing stream, that bounded on its way.
I sat upon the grass, and bent over those lonely flowers,
"Beautiful things!" why may not your deep peacefulness be ours?
'Twas but a poet's fancy this:—what language hath a flower?
And the loud bustling world would blame that idle dreaming hour,
The waste of being and of power—the inaction and the sleep
Of all those energies, whose fruit, the earth we tread should reap.
And they would ask of me the use of cloud, or bud, or breeze,
Or a few sparkling water-drops beneath some lonely trees?
Their use to life, or to mankind?—they perished long ago;
And even that they ever were, I perhaps only know.
So let me perish, I reply—their uselessness be mine!
All ere the grave, but their repose, I wearily resign:
One high emotion let me wake in some tired passer by'
One aspiration of the heart to haunt it till it die:
And I will brood no more in gloom o'er all the unachieved,
But e'en self-reverently learn to bear, less keenly grieved,
The unfitness of the poet's gift for uses of this earth,
Whate'er its lauded gloriousness, its slight material worth.
1829.
WE two have sat together,
Beside the brilliant hearth;
And strayed together o'er the grass
Of this our pleasant earth;
When laughed its morning, we have met;
And met when closed its even;
And when its solemn moonlight rose;
But shall we meet in heaven?
Dear friend! I ask not dost thou care
What are my hopes or fears;
I know our eyes have met in smiles,
And also met in tears:
Take the deep question to thy heart,
And let it be forgiven;—
Are both of us (so bound on earth)
Upon our way to heaven?
If sometimes, to detain awhile
Each other's voice and form,
We have stirred up a gentle strife,
A transient summer storm;
Would! would that we whose words have thus,
In wasted moments striven,
Might fondly strive together now
To reach the goal of heaven!
In paleness we have breathed farewell
When parting, not for long;
And each has felt in solitude
If single 'midst the throng:
Oh! what if e'er from either's lips
A last farewell be given!
What if there should be only one
Amid the bliss of heaven!
1832.
ALAS! how utterly we all exist
Upon each other's will!
Cannot one smile give life,
One word's unkindness kill?
One smile, from mortal eyes like our's,
Subject alike to sorrow's showers,
Troubled alike by moodier hours,
Though not to us made visible?
One word, from lips that may repent,
As keenly as our own,
Deep love's abrupt abandonment
Of truth's far softer tone?
The flash that will escape the heart,
Because it so adores,
That a shadow wakes the jealous start,
Which wounds and then deplores
Till we, even though the worshipped, see
The price of all idolatry,
1830.
OH! to live life o'er again,
And be what we were not!—
And cautiously and wisely tread
Each labyrinthine spot,
Where Feeling's fiery hand flung down
Its signature and blot
On the white page of early hope,
That page which now we seldom ope!
Oh! for our mind once more as when
'Twas like an untouched lute!
How many a time when wildliest sweet
Its tones should now be mute!
How lowlier thoughts and loftier aims
Should temper griefs acute!
How there should be a sterner guard,
A law on every trembling chord!
Then be it so!—Life! life, awake,
And spread thy wings for heaven!
If we have pained, we yet may watch,
To soothe, and be forgiven;
If all too feebly heretofore
Love with low bonds hath striven,
Yet may its flame sublimely rise
Up through the blue and boundless skies.
One life indeed is swept from earth:
It was our own, and we
Stand on its grave, and deeply sad
Its crowded weed-flowers see;
Yet, though not one memorial there
Save these can ever be,
A life even here may still be ours
Of pure, and green, and Spring-like hours.
But we must first return in tears,
Heal every wound we made,
Unweave imaginations vain,
And cast them down to fade;
Our influence o'er men's hearts must be
Elsewhere as incense laid,
Ere all shall be at peace within,
And that sweet life of calm begin.
1829.
WITHHOLD not, oh! withhold it not!
Hast thou nothing more to give,—
There's many a costlier boon forgot,
When a passing look will live
Or a tone of softness linger on
In the mind o'er which long years have gone.
Is it not so?—Look back from here
To thy childhood's time, when the blush of fear
Or the tears which thou hadst not learned to chain,
Were quick as burning to teach thee pain;
Canst thou remember no smile, that dried
With its pitying sweetness mild,
Those drops thou wert yet untrained to hide
By the fetters of custom, the strength of pride;
Till thou, too, while blushing smiled,
And lifted thy hidden face once more,
Like a rosebud in June when the rain is o'er?
Or in after days, when thou, perhaps,
Severed from friends and home,
Gloomily watchedst thy life elapse;—
Like a spot of river foam
That is helplessly, aimlessly borne on
With the rushing current, and swiftly gone;—
If the voice of censure—the proud lip's scorn
Fell on thee to make thee more forlorn;
Canst thou remember no fearless eye,
That was there like a sun in thy wintry sky,
Smiling when none would smile but it,
Warmest when all were cold,
With a still-excusing softness lit,
Gilding each cloud that past would flit,
With a kindness nobly bold?
Could'st thou now in thy days of brightness go
Calmly where it lies shut below?
And still in the multitude meet'st thou not
A few, who pass but are ne'er forgot?
One day's companion—who soon to thee
Is as lost as a dreamt-of form,—
A stranger thou ne'er again may'st see,
But in whom all sweetest charity
Was transparent, and pure, and warm;
Have the watching looks—have the gentle deeds
Been but mingled with memory's valueless weeds?
Oh! no—when the brilliance of glowing thought
Is remembered with undelight,
When looks flashing power from the Past are brought
Unwished to our spirit's sight;
When we shut our eyes with a heavy sigh
On much that seemed fair; when we long to fly
From the dark fascination, the strong stern spell
That unkindness can weave round the mind so well;
When the silent Past itself is all
Like some spectre-peopled marble hall,
Which our very soul grows cold to tread
Now, 'mid the lost—the changed—the dead!
When its visions that gladdened our credulous youth
Are hated because of their deep untruth;
And faces that once it was bliss to see
Come chillingly o'er the brain;
Still, still, there is balm for the weary mind
In the thought of the deeply, the fearlessly kind.—
We have lived and loved, oh! not in vain,
If with this sweet and silent chain
We have bound and subdued, to forget us ne'er,
Hearts, whose sorrows we sought and were suffered to share.
TALK not of light arising on the soul
From the sun's smile: say not the quiet moon
Subdues the heart to sympathy and peace
By its own gentleness: as if that man
And man's deep spirit, were but like his life,
A cloud, a flower, a wave!—ne'er tell the sad,
That the pure world of blameless nature sheds
The joy of trees, and streams, and mountain winds
Through the sick mind: they know it is not so;
They know how vain the soul-degrading faith.
The sun in heaven is subject unto us,
Not we to it—one hope can make it bright,
One grief can blacken it—its warmth is naught
Unto those inward spiritual founts,
Which icy thoughts have gathered deeply o'er;
Nor does it much delight eyes filled with tears,
1830.
OH Genius! Genius! radiant is thy light
In the young eye:—whether at dead of night
Its ardent gaze follow thy eagle flight,
And on, on heavenward be sent
Through all the moonlit firmament,
Through depths unfathomed, o'er that shoreless sea
Of stars, and stillness, and immensity;
When to thee, Genius! there comes breathed from thence
Unutterable music,—and when air and earth,
Voiceless as at creation's birth,
Seem awed by night's magnificence;
Mute while those myriad lights are glistening,
In wonder and in worship listening
To their eternal eloquence,
Which speaketh of Omnipotence!
Whether the angel-form of Beauty pass thee by,
Her soft blush deepening to carnation's dye,
And thy fixed gaze in fond entrancement dwell
On the resistless witchery of her spell:
Whether, while thou standest on some eyry height,
Bending thee o'er the mountain-guarded vale,
And musing how it ne'er hath known a blight,—
Suddenly, thence upon the startled gale,
The bugle's blast, with spirit-stirring note,
Proudly and echoingly upward float,
Proclaiming battle's blood-red march begun,—
Victory or the death-wound yet alike unwon,—
But swelled with all the stormy, stern delight
Of headlong Valour, rushing to the fight:
Whether near St. Gothard's monarchy of peace,
Ere sunset's tints from his high snows be gone;
Whether thy step be on the shores of Greece,
At but the name of Marathon!
Yes, kindling is thy flash from the young eye!
And beautiful thy warmth on the young cheek!
When thoughts rush to the heart,—burn there—and die,—
Those thrilling thoughts that words may never speak;
Yet, Genius! yet—thou art a fearful gift!
Madness—a broken heart—an early grave,
These are thy portion;—vulture-like they wait,
And be their silent coming slow, or swift,
It is the same,—Misery hath marked thee with her seal of fate;
Oh! cling not unto earth,—it cannot save;
Onward, too surely, comes the dark and gathering wave;
Soonest thy warm and tremulous heart shall be
The earth-worm's prey!
Soonest thy soul-stamped brow shall sleep
In the cold clay!
And Fame may weep for thee, when thou art fled;
What are her tears? they seem in mockery shed,
So late, so worthless!—over one who wooed,
Unwearied wooed her; as aspiring Youth
Woos high-souled Beauty's love—
Silently—doubtingly—with looks alone,—
Fervently yet, and with a fatal truth;
Genius! thou rainbow 'mid the sons of men!
Who, who shall paint thee?—bitter were the task
To unveil the hectic hid beneath thy mask!
Thy statue should stand haughty and alone,
Pale, and yet glorious; lit by midnight's lamp,
And with a wreath of poisonous brilliance crowned;
But wrapt in lofty visions of thine own,
Seeming all heedless of death's gathering damp,
Or of the serpent round thy life-pulse wound.
Kindled to be extinguished in the tomb,
Spark as thou art of deity!
Oh! mournfully mysterious is thy doom;—
And, bought with blight of life's young bloom,
Dear is thy immortality!
At best thou art a fever of the soul,
Thy joy delirium—exquisite, but wild—
1826.
LIKE a tree through soft surrounding mist
In silvery dimness seen,
Standing amid the leafiest
The still and separate queen,—
But half thy beauty was expressed,
Imagination dreamed the rest.
And lovelier that we saw not all
We ever thought thou wert,
And watched to see the mantle fall
From off thy pensive heart;
But still that shadowing mist remained,—
The perfect sight we never gained.
A something in thy smile forbid
The thought that thou wert chill,
And yet thy tenderness was hid
With such a strength of will,
Or such a veil of nature's own,
Thy sweetness was like a sculptured stone.
But thou! oh thou, the beautiful,
Beyond a poet's dream!
Remembering thee, how faint and dull
All words and symbols seem.
The swan upon clear waters? no,
Too haughtily she moves;
And the mild moon has but the glow
Of one who coldly loves;
June's sunset flush on hill and sea,
Heaven's evening smile, is more like thee.
But there's nothing like thee here,—
Thou wert a dreamy thing:
The glassiest lake's still under-sphere,
Reflecting on the wing
A dove amid the azure vast,
May feebly give the feeling cast
By thy sweet face, when on the sight
It rose like an illusion bright.
Again that evening's firelight seems,
In memory now, to spread
Its rich illuminating gleams
Around thy Grecian head:
Again thy smile, so sweet, so faint,
Meets me too exquisite to paint.
'Twas strange to hear thy shadow-like
Harmonious hand of grace,
From harp-chords that had substance, strike
The music of our race;
All common things seemed strange in thee,
That proved thee a reality!
1829.
HARK to the tempest-murmur near
Approaching o'er the Future's sea!
Hark to the swelling war-cry clear,
Of evil days to be!—
"Men's hearts are failing them for fear,"
There is—there is "perplexity!"
Things of a dark portentous birth
Are coming on the astonished earth;
The trembling nations dare not look
On destiny's unopened book;
Sad were that heart's prophetic glance,
Should dimly pierce the dread expanse,—
To see the strong advancing waves,
And envy those within their graves!
Much that was like the sun in heaven,
Grows dark;—and in the deepening night,
Much like the moon hath vainly striven
To give a guiding light;
And some like stars, are downward driven
From their once radiant height.
"The powers of heaven" are shaken now;
Things like the ancient mountains bow;
The holy and the strong are crushed
'Neath the dread avalanche;—and hushed
In the cold hopelessness of death,
Are kindly tones, and love's soft breath:
Oh! there are "wonders"—"signs" indeed!
Who shall their awful mystery read?
What if some daring seer should tell
The silent writing on the wall!
Would scoffing Pride believe it well
As erst Belshazzar's breathless hall?
The dazzling sentence who shall spell?
Who tell the mighty that they fall?—
Go! but within her brazen gates
E'en now the unseen Deliverer stands—
HE whom "the prince of this world" hates,
Will loose the captives' bands.
Joy to the race despised, that waits
That Warrior from celestial lands!
The kingliest rivers that have rolled,
Euphrates-like, in glory bold,
Their bitter waters mockingly
Where Zion's children wept, shall be
Emptied for ever;—sin's deep streams,
And sorrow's, shall depart like dreams
Before his Trumpet's awful glee—
The Trumpet of the Jubilee!
Earthward his mighty army treads,
The hosts of Heaven, prepared for war,—
He comes! he comes!—lift up your heads
Ye blest, who of his kingdom are!
Fear not the midnight gloom that spreads;
He comes "the bright and morning Star."
Lift up thy darkly-troubled eye,
Oh Earth! and see thy summer nigh;
1835.
MY sister!—gloom is gathering,
The Autumn's farewell gloom,—
And hues and flowers are withering,
To tell us of the tomb.
Over my harp had crept the chill,
I cannot wake its tones at will;
Yet, on this day its chords would try
If they have aught of minstrelsy.
This day, what is it? it is one
That tells of times and feelings gone,
That turns thought back to one long fled,
When first a mother o'er thee shed
The thrilling tears of tenderness,
Of hope, and love, and happiness;
When first her lip to thine was pressed,
When first she watched thine infant rest;
When first a father looked on thee,
And to Jehovah bent the knee,
And prayed for thee a father's prayers,
Which purest, holiest fervour bears,
1825.
THEY parted mutely, with averted eyes,
Lest tears should force their way;
And yet they wished not that disguise,
For they had much to say,—
But there are lips that dare not move
In their excess of grief or love.
They asked no promises to be
Sometimes remembered—no!
They seemed to read futurity,
And feel it must be so;
All the fond jealousies that were
Lay then forgotten in despair.
Once they had questioned were they loved;
Now, memory's flush of shame,
In self-reproachful sweetness moved
Where first such paleness came;
And their dark downcast eyes, the while,
Tried mournfully to act a smile.
A smile!—oh! not so strange and sad
Is sunshine on a grave!—
Gone was that smile, the morning glad
When laughed each brilliant wave,
And one lone lingerer on the shore
Gazed tearfully the waters o'er.
But now!—O not in sleep, nor dreams
Of the heart's waking choice—
Are they to meet indeed?—it seems
Too like a treacherous voice
That tells but half.—Ah! strange to own,
They now exult not—they alone!
Is it that fear and pain have part
As certainly in love,
As shadows even when clouds depart
In sunshine from above;
And sometimes darkliest mark the ground
Where sudden joy is brightest round?
Or is it that to meet again
Is always somewhat sad,
Since nothing, nothing can have then
The very look it had?
Or should it, we ourselves have changed
So much with time, 't would seem estranged?
Back to the sweet years long ago
Affection wanders still,—
Till all the present seems to grow
Grief-clouded, tame, and chill;
And love too anxiously would know
How much of love, the loved will show.
Yes, both perhaps in shrinking doubt
Would, ere that hour, foresee
How much of change shall breathe about
The welcoming to be;
Both try beneath a veil of pride
Love's agonizing fears to hide.
As they attempted no farewell,
Their hearts perhaps will beat
Too wildly now their bliss to tell;
And thus, those two may meet,
Just as they parted, with a fear
Lest feeling's depth should wring a tear!
SUBLIME and sweet it passed me by,—
Like one grand and solemn tone
From some deep swell of symphony,
That soars to God alone.
'T was but a thought—a shadowy thought,
And yet, what have we here
Save thoughts? those precious ones enwrought
With all things bright or dear;
Those pure ones, separate and unstained,
Which the lip shrinks to own,
As it deemed their sacredness profaned
By any earthly tone.
Those lonely ones, and exquisite,
Woke by the breath of June,
When the leafiness around is lit
By the still and glorious moon.
Those burning ones, that light the eye,
And kindle at a name,
Thy thousand names that cannot die,
Greece! mournful land of fame!
Those lofty ones, whose downward look
Serenely rests on earth,
And its passions that our spirit shook,
Awhile seem nothing worth.
Those vast and deep, that love the peal
Of the resounding sea,
Beside whose boundlessness we feel
Our immortality.
What have we more in all this world,
From first our hearts can love,
Whose flag of light shines on unfurled,
Even as our trust above?
What more that does not die, or lose
The sweetness that it had,—
Till even the green earth's joyous hues
To us look dimmed and sad?
What more that we can claim as ours,
Through change and through decay,
And those autumn years when life's young flowers
Drop silently away?
Oh! nothing:—yet there is a goal
Where these things are forgot,—
And here, deep treasures for the soul,
In the wide heaven of thought.
And back in softened mournfulness
To founts yet sparkling there,
Those sullied founts of happiness
That are not what they were,
And onward in glad freedom far,
With the eagle's fearless flight,
Up to a yet more dazzling Star
Of everlasting light,
In memory, in faith's sure hope
How often we have flown!
Darkly the buds of youth may droop,
But these are still our own.
The smile, the last, the parting one,
So sad, so very faint!
The farewell fervently begun,
But left for looks to paint;
That glance in which we read the vow,
While hand in hand lay yet,
Of affection's faith that did but know
It never could forget;
All that has ever made our heart
Beat quicker, with the rush
Of feeling's tide,—all that had part
In the young cheek's rapid flush;
Those moments of our lives, that live
Each one a hoarded gem,
Bringing sweet tears! oh! who would give
One single thought of them?—
'Twas the day of rest, and deep repose
Lay upon tree and grave,
And beautiful the Spring-day rose
On hill and sparkling wave:
And in that place of quietness—
In the temple of the Lord,
We knelt us down in lowliness,
In one high faith's accord.
And I thought o'er all my country then—
The blessed and the free—
In that same brotherhood again
What thousands bent the knee!
In every spot where on that morn,
Sweetly the sabbath bell
Had sent its voice, on soft winds borne,
Of the "better land" to tell.
Where the sultry city's crowds were met—
Where the struggling sunshine falls
Through the heavy air (how lovely yet!)
Upon the holy walls.
Or where they rose in ivied pride,
From the grassiness around,
Where, uncrushed, the early violets hide,
Brightening the hallowed ground.
From earth's assembled multitudes,
Who knelt to be forgiven,
I thought how then went mutely up
The incense dear to heaven.
From the ship upon the ocean foam,
From the strange land's saddening bloom,
From the darkened peacefulness of home
In the sick chamber's gloom,
How many a heart was lifting then
The meek and contrite prayer,
Wherever 'mongst the sons of men
Thoughts of a Saviour were!
1827.
OH! thou of fatal gifts! who canst create
Light where none is;—whose vision-haunted eye
Things of this earth can deify;
Or with the flash of one resistless glance,
Hearts and their secrets penetrate;
Or into dark futurity advance
Guesses, that reach by some most wondrous chance,
Truths in the volume of far distant Fate.
Thou! thou who dost within thyself possess
A power o'er deep affections at thy will,
Making proud eyes with tears of softness fill,
Through love incomprehensible for thee;
Strange, varying spirit,—who could never be
(Though memories of thee the sad mind oppress)
Forgotten, nor renounced, nor even loved much less!
Thou! unto whom Imagination's land
Is as a native country, where thy soul
Can wander freely, far from man's control,—
And then returning, on the dull earth fold
Thought's wearied wings,—and statue-like and cold
(As some mute figure in a temple old,
With marble bosom, chillingly doth stand,)
Repulse without a word some fondly clasping hand.
Awake, thou dreamer! this shall have an end:
Thou art thyself the fire that shall destroy
Thy young capacities for boundless joy;
Thou art thyself thy purest weal's alloy.
With thine own happiness, though bright it seem,
Thou, as in some infatuated dream,
Wilt play, as children with the flowers they rend;
Yes! earthly friendships sometimes cease to beam,
Even on the hearts too tranquil to offend,—
Who then will long, on thee, unselfish softness spend?
And yet, in sooth, if souls be once entwined
Truly with thine—alas! for them, not thee!
They have put forth upon a shoreless sea,
Who once have loved thee!—thy enslaving eye
Knows well its gift; and in that smile's reply
There is the charm of the mysterious wind
The fickle and unfathomable sky;
Oh! but for this one power by thee possessed,—
How darkly isolated thou shouldst go
Down to the grave!—how few would care to know,
Or give one sigh unto thy place of rest!—
Read humbly then the feelings unexpressed
And inexpressible, that sometimes glow
In silent eyes for thee—the thoughts that flow
From other souls into thy throbbing breast,
So wordlessly:—and, well remember—woe!
Woe to that conscious one, who gifted so,
To leave sweet influences deep impressed,
And bless with but a smile, maketh not others blest!
1830.
WAS she an orphan?—can another grief
So wholly chasten?—can another woe
So sanctify?—for she was (as a leaf
Of hue funereal mid the Spring's young glow)
Robed in emphatic black:—the soul of night
Filled her rich simply-parted ebon hair,
And raven eye-lashes, and made her bright
With solemn lustre day can never wear.
Two younger buds, a sister at each side,
Like little moon-lit clouds beside the moon,
Which up the sky's majestic temple glide,
Clad darkly too, she led,—but music soon
Moved over her, and like a breeze of heaven,
Shook from her lips the fragrance of her soul,—
And then, the thoughts with which my heart had striven,
Spoke in my gaze, and would not brook control.
I bent upon her my astonished eye,
That glowed, I felt, with an expression full
Of all that love which dares to deify,—
That adoration of the beautiful
Which haunts the poet,—I forgot the sighs
Of whispered prayer around me, and the page
Of hope divine, and the eternal eyes
That look through every heart, in every place and age.
I gazed and gazed as though she were a star,
Unconscious and unfallen, which shone above, afar.
But eloquently grave, a crimson cloud
Of deep disquietude her cheek o'erspread
With exquisite rebuke;—and then I bowed
Like hers my earnest looks and conscious head,
Ashamed to have disturbed the current meek
Of her translucent thoughts, and made them flow
Painfully earthward. But she veiled that cheek,—
Veiled even its sweet reproach and sacred glow,
Like those pure flowers too sensitive to brook
Noon's burning eye, and its oppressive look,
That shut, in beautiful displeasure, up
Each brilliant petal of their heart's deep cup.
1832.
"MY soul's own chosen one! come near—
Love! wherefore wilt thou keep me here?
Dark to me earth's sunniest sky,
Let me, let me die!
"Keep me not! there burneth ever
At this wasted heart a fever,
Look upon my altered eye,
Dearest! let me die!
"You know not how my soul is tired
Of whate'er it once desired,
Oh! if you could feel as I,
In mercy you would let me die.
"But no! you will not let me go
From a world of pain and woe,
I cannot to my Saviour fly,
You will not let me die!∗
"Lo! the dawn makes pale the moon,
Yes! it will be morning soon,
Another weary day is nigh,
Now let me, let me die!
"Forgive me, loved one! this is wrong,
But for rest, for Christ I long—
Kiss me—take my parting sigh—
It is past—I die."
From her faint lips mysteriously broke forth
A clear exulting music!—as she fled
It was permitted unto us of earth,
To hear the first far hymnings of the dead
Entering the courts of Heaven:—she sang! she sang!
The astonished hearts that listened, echoing rang
With glad thanksgivings: the redeemed was gone
To join the radiant choir around the eternal throne.
This is not a solitary instance of the dying entertaining the idea that their spirit is detained by some living object of affection.
That lovely lady! on a foreign shore
Far from her western transatlantic home,
I first beheld her,—life was almost o'er
In her calm hectic-lighted cheek, and eyes
Sweet as the brilliant pestilential skies
'Neath which she sleeps, beyond the ocean's foam.
She cut her long black tresses off, and prayed
In her soft tone of me, that I would braid,
For the far friends she never more should see,
Those well-known locks, that unto them would be
Dear, for the sake of the cold buried brow,
And bosom stilled, o'er which they used to flow:
Then, with her feeble hand she would enclose
With love's last written words, the gift to those;
And thenceforth wait her Lord in unprofaned repose.
The sad accepted task, with solemn pride
My hand performed:—she was to me a bride,
Whose heavenly Bridegroom hastened, and 'twas mine
To share her waiting hours, and watch her shine
In more unearthly sweetness day by day,
While wasting sufferings slow, consumed her mortal clay.
'Twas mine, in midnight vigils by her bed,
His blessed words to whisper her, and shed
His peace around her, which had power to curb
The few meek sighs that would her soul disturb.
And when at last it came, her quiet breath
On love's rich music floated forth to death,
To meet and hail her Saviour's light, and bless
The all-healing "Sun of Righteousness."
Her lone and cypress-shadowed grave, is where
The camel-bells through the clear golden air
Pass to the desert, with their dreamy sound
Of wild and solemn melody profound:—
Dark, giant hills the bright horizon bound,
Looking as ancient as the ancient earth:
The awful shadow of the far-off Past,
O'er all the region, all the soil is cast,
Like lingering memories of creation's birth.
Let the lone pilgrim, to Judea bound,
Pause on his burning path to Syrian wilds,
And by that grave (with one, a little child's,
Its sole companion in the silence round,)
Ere yet the moonlight dance, and moonlight song
The scene's severe and serious beauty wrong,—
Ere young fair fingers rouse the soft guitars,
That seem to mock the gravely tranquil stars,—
There, let the wanderer, by that tomb repose
A few still moments!—Oh! if he be one
With soul to feel the living light, that throws
O'er that one spot, which earthly fame hath none,
A more pathetic glory than is shed
Round prouder soil above "the mighty dead;"
He will depart from thence as in a dream,
And calmly pass e'en that immortal stream
By which a Homer sang—and coldly see
The all-conquering Roman's track—the verdure-wreathed
And ruined arches beautiful; each tree
On all that haunted ground,—each step that leads
Toward the dark cypress woods, o'er fragrant weeds,
Along those banks, where breathe as they have breathed,
The River Meles.
1838.
OH city! city of my birth!
How mournful seems the light,
Wherewith this sabbath evening's sun
Has made thy stillness bright,—
Thy windows, that like burnished gold
O'erlook the sickly grass,
Or glittering river's treeless banks,
Whose sullied waters pass
With the proud gloom a slave might wear
Between its guard of victors there—
Those walls that have so long shut in
Its no more gladsome hours,
From sights each meaner brook may win,
Of moss, and meadow flowers,
And summer's earliest bees that creep
Into their bosoms while they sleep,
Not so, thou city of my birth!
All hopeful seems the light,
The sabbath smile that rests on thee
As sunset melts in night!
No grassy haunt in greenwood depths
So sends its beauty to my heart;
For here "the excellent of earth,"
Whose fearless, fervent lips impart
Truth's fragrance to the air around,
Gem with their holy lives, the ground.
And thou, upon thy way, dark river!
What green leaves ever dropped on thee,
What branches sighed above thee ever,
Like those of Life's eternal Tree,
Which by thy side hath taken root,
And lifts to heaven its glorious fruit?
Be proud that mightier rivers flow
On since creation's birth, nor know,
And oh! flow on, flow on, thou sound
Of that river whose streams make glad
The city of God!∗
—grow more profound
In the silence of the desert round,
Till not one thirsting heart shall any more be sad.
Yes, till thy crystal waters bound
The sinless city of our God,
Flow o'er the desolated ground,
And o'er the death-sown, sod!
Psalm xlvi. 4.
1832.
YES! thou indeed art as an eagle, cleaving
High solitudes profound,—
Thought's mountain summits, far beneath thee leaving,
And who of earth shall bring thee to the ground?
Thy wings of intellect are dazzling-bright,
Oh! earliest loved, I know not where they soar;
I veil mine eyes before the splendid sight,
I only know that this must once be o'er.
For take thy flight, which hath a glorious seeming,
Upward and upward, wandering through light!
Smile in thy heart at faith's prophetic dreaming,
That aught shall pluck thee from thy sovereign height!
Is there around the lofty habitation
Of thy bright spirit any guard from him?
Canst thou defy the inward desolation
With which his wrath all brilliant thoughts can dim?
Hast thou a heart that would not much be wounded
Should burning arrows fall on it like rain,—
Should love be crushed, and deepest trust confounded,
And memory's self become unsleeping pain?
And what shall then those glorious wings avail thee,
Bleeding, and faint, and powerless to rise,
When all the refuges of this world fail thee,
And coldly glitter the approachless skies?
Oh! ere that hour, "a little child" again,
Become in wisdom's renovated youth,
And rise, an eagle, among fearless men,
For Him who is "the Truth."
1832.
CALL it not death when Christ's redeemed
Pass from the earth away,
While eyes that ever fondly beamed
Still light them on their way;
While the supporting arms of love
Pillow their faint heads still,
And dearest lips that trembling move,
Imprint their forehead's chill.
They did not call it death who told
That early martyr's tale,
Whose angel beauty, meekly bold,
Sank 'neath the dreadful hail,
The cruel shower of stormy hate
Which on his sweetness fell,
Crushing him 'neath its furious weight,
With all the joy of hell!
Call it not death, if like to him,
Oh! chosen of the Lord!
An hour of fearful martyrdom
Be yours, of earth abhorred.
Like him ye shall but "fall asleep,"—
Shall from your labours rest
In quiet slumber, soft and deep,
Upon your Saviour's breast.
Oh! no—there is no death for His,—
But life's eternal light!
Call death the blessed sleep it is,—
The balmy summer night!
And soon that veiling night, withdrawn
Even from your graves shall be—
Soon this corruption shall put on
HIS incorruptibility!
1838.
BEAUTIFUL dove! they chase thee through the air,
Thinking to lay their sacrilegious hands
Upon thy purest wings!—they proudly dare,
With glittering fetters and with gorgeous bands,
To furnish forth a prison, where thy voice
May haply send its music to their heart,
And teach even them, like angels to rejoice.
But no, thou holy and thou free!—depart!—
Fly in the silence of thy meek disdain,
Fly unalarmed—though heavily they rain
Their golden arrows round thee:—they shall bind,
Sooner than thee, the rainbow, or the wind!
Fly to thine own green solitudes of peace,
Which this world knows not—to the hearts as still
As forest-depths,—whose verdure doth not cease
With summer's glory:—unto Zion's hill
Or, if thou leave us for a little while,
Let the sad eyes that watch thee on thy flight,
Through many a bright immeasurable mile
Follow thee onward, into realms of light
They else had never pierced,—till we shall say
"Return not here sweet spirit! come not back,
Except to take us with thyself away,
Along that glorious never-ending track!"—
Oh! like those men of Galilee who stood
Up-gazing into heaven—one brotherhood
On earth is yet, who still the promise hear,
"Wherefore, ye sad ones, stand ye gazing here?
Bliss hath departed from the sons of men,
But tears are not for you—your Lord shall come again!"
1833.
OH! Saviour, when our hearts are dark,
When even within the heaven-shut ark
We tremble, as we hear the sound
Of sin's wild deluge sweeping round,—
And o'er a buried world are borne,
Not as in faith's triumphant morn,
But tearfully,—with gaze intent
Upon a moonless firmament:
While yet no olive bough is brought
Across the troubled deep of thought,
While yet the dove of peace is far,
Arise, thou "bright and morning Star!"
Rise in thy brilliant light of love,
Our spirit's gloomy waves above!
And let the stillness of thine eye
Make beautiful the stormy sky!
If chilling yet, and damp, the dawn
With midnight's veil but half withdrawn,
Broods o'er some newly wakened soul,
Called hence to seek its heavenly goal;
When first it keeps in sacred woe
The vigils only God can know;
When every star its darkness knew,
Burns pale and dim before its view,
Quenched in the coming of a day
When all, save Thou, shall pass away;
When earth has lost her moon-like smile,
And all the beauty of her guile,
And yet, no sun-rise fresh and clear
Breathes to the heart a healthful cheer;
Oh! in that sad and silent hour,
Ere night is past, or day has power,
Where'er the waiting, watching, are—
Look down thou "bright and morning Star!"
When, lonelier still, our mortal night
Is vanishing before the light
Of death's yet dim and struggling dawn;
When earth and time are almost gone,
And life is like a broken sleep
Whose far-departed visions sweep
In solemn mockery back again,
Before the keenly sentient brain;
When on our eyes weigh heavy clouds,
And one abyss of shadow shrouds
The Valley through whose depths we go;
And from eternal deserts blow
The winds that freeze our being's stream;
Then, on our dying features, beam
Illumination of delight!
And to our soul, and to our sight
The golden gates of heaven unbar!
Jesus! thou "bright and morning Star!"
And in that conflict, yet to shake
Earth's utmost bounds, when kings shall wake
To muster 'gainst the eternal "Word"
The last "great battle of the Lord;"∗
When with a fiery splendour dread,
In marshalled multitudes far-spread,
Rev. xix. 13,19.
(Comet-like, showering on their path
Terror and pestilential wrath,)
The principalities of hell
Enthroned on high shall seem to dwell,
And evil shall have deadliest power:
Suddenly—in that midnight hour,—
Leader of God's own hosts of war!
Appear, "thou bright and morning Star!"
1834.
WELL may that dreamer symbolize
Thee clear-eyed Faith!—The horizon's ring,
Bounding the old world's shores and skies,
To him became a narrow thing,
That caged his soul's enthusiast wing,
And wrung from him a captive's sighs.
As stands the Christian upon earth,
So amidst men the stranger stood,
Wrapt in sublimest solitude!
Suns rose and set for eighteen years,
And feelings passed away,—
But still, with all its hopes and fears,
That vision's vastness lay
On his tired life,—an early grey
Faded his locks,—and more than tears
Gave to his deep Italian eyes
At last the iron bars of fate
Gave way to his resistless soul;—
And thundering regions desolate,
Where boundless waters breathe and roll,
Haughtily questioned to what goal
The invader dreamed to penetrate.
Never before had they beheld,
Like ocean-eagles gone astray,
Man, winging o'er their realm, his proud and perilous way.
Friends! friends—who thus with sails unfurled,
Press onward to a land of faith!
"Deep calls to deep"—but shall that world
Which hither o'er the gulfs of death,
Already sends a sweeter breath,
And many a floating bough impearled
With glowing buds of heavenly bliss,—
Shall that bright world whose signs we meet,
Be lost, though billows round us beat?
Shall the dear "dream" for which we bid
Our native earth and home farewell,
If his mute lips until the virgin sod
With rapture's tears he kneeling pressed,
How think ye, we, in presence of our God,
Welcomed by angels to a Father's breast,
Shall, amid that unutterable rest,
Kneel to embrace the pierced feet that trod
Our world of sin? Oh! what is grief—
What is shame, loss,—yea agony or death,
What are all tempests to the joy of Faith?